I need a hug

and a good sleep..

p/s: post call

I miss you today

What do you usually do when you miss someone?

Myself, it's always logical to do what the person I'm missing love to do. That way I feel as if he/she's closed to me, though in reality he/she isn't.

Like when I'm missing mom, I always go and eat something orangy, like Jaffa cakes or Terry's Chocolate Orange. You know the way old people think that chocolate can only be mixed with orange as the other flavour. That's my mom. She always go for chocolate with orange, like Zip Orange, or Crispies Orange, or Kit Kat Orange. Never strawberries or raspberries, what more mints or anything like that. Which I think is cute. And I always feel closed to her whenever I enjoy my Jaffa cakes or Terry's from here.

As for dad, I feel him when I'm most simple. My dad is the simplest person on earth. He grew up in a difficult time, being the eldest in his family. A lot of sacrifices, even to raise us being what we are now. So when it comes to food he's not fussy. So I miss him most when I eat soup or anything very simple.

Do you ever smile on your own when a song is on the radio and your thought went away to meet the people who love the song? I do that a lot. Like when I miss my friends, the closest ones from matriculations, I listen to SO7's. Always helps. And few people that I know what their favourite songs are. I even have an album in my iTunes entitled 'Adik's Favourites'. And those will be full of R&B, Soul, Pop, the types youth nowadays love to listen to (and my bro always had out loud on the radio in his room). And another album with Alleycats', The Carpenters', ABBA's, for the big sis.

Today I'm missing Maryam my old friend from the middle-east. I went to the bakery near the hospital entrance and bought viennese whirl. That used to be her favourite. I never actually seen her having anything else from there other than the viennese.


My favourite would be the coffee square, but I bought this one instead and ate it on the way home. It felt like Maryam, it really was.

And what would you do when you miss your Creator?

So it's logical too that performing solahs and reciting the Quran are the best things to do for that. And hopefully that won't be wearied till I blow my last breath. Amin.

I come in peace

You see, I literally live beside the hospital. Literally coz though the apartment is really just beside the hospital compound, I have to walk out to the main road and walk in the hospital again, coz there's a gate just parallel to the way. People used to climbed over the gate for a short cut but now the path is already closed off with trees and all. Who knows what's in there now.

So everyday I have to walk out and in again. The whole walk takes about 10-15 mins on days when I wake up late and had my sloppiest un-ironed tudung and shirt, but usually 20-25 mins on days of shining natural radiant beauty and youth (muaha).

The thing is, almost half of the population of the Woods (the compound where I live) are health care workers of the hospital. The funny thing is three quarter of them are non-Irish. Today I crossed the big field to go home and noticed there were more Rajus and Sanjits than Davids or Marks playing football on the field (probably few Raveenas and Preetis on the field side holding water bottles for their beaus). The he.

And I bet a group of them are the nurses I must've ignored, didn't answered bleeps of, gave my cold replies and probably bitched to (probably I said). Don't blame me, if you wanna know I'm one of the nicest junior doctors with fair replies. Ask my colleagues how many bleeps they've ignored. And it's not like we're drinking coffee all day in the cafe ok.

Now I'm calculating, what are the chances that they don't make a pack and burn my apartment down for what I've done to them?

Man.

i just need to talk to you

Judging by the progress of work, I probably won't have to stayback till late to finish my work anymore. Hurray! Tima kasih la semua yg memberi semangat utk terus bejuang..hehe. That means the blog will be updated quite frequently now and it also means that I'll continue to bore you with my random thoughts I have post-hospital hours, just whatever I feel like writing once the bottom meets the comfy bed. Feel free to click the X button on the top right if you're bored and if you feel like I don't make sense of words anymore.

There's a new locum consultant in the team. The good thing is I know him really well. I was in the last batch of students he taught in the other hospital when I was in my 3rd year, before he left for M'sia to teach in Penang. Now he's back. Yay! The first thing I said to him when I met him was,

"Dr __ , you used to teach me in 3rd med. I still remember your 9 steps of auscultation of the heart you taught me!"

Thinking back, I would love it if my students say that to me, not in a boasting way of course but in an appreciative kind of way. That's why I think I'm gonna end up teaching in one of the hospitals at home. Can't wait!

We had a meeting with Big Boss regarding research as well. We're working on a really cool research (from my point of view), on analyzing pre- and post-call hand-eye dexterities and co-ordinations amongst the doctors and the surgeons. The results would be very interesting, one of it says an idea whether one is more suitable to be a surgeon or a physician. Cool aa?

You have a great day oowwriiiteee!

what's the craic?

First of all, I was just messing down there. The SHO is a sweet-talker big time. And the picture of my uncle the bilal of Kg Alor Gajah in Melaka giving me advices before I left M'sia for the first time 5 years ago, about never forgetting our roots and culture/ethnic keeps playing in my mind like a continuous film on a replay each time I was going near this whole Grey's Anatomy mode. Thank you bapak, I'll never forget your wise advices! Damn it I know that show is contagious!!

Well the weekend was well spent. In both ways; time and money. I had a good craic with friends, sharing stories about work and bitching about people. He he kidding. There's new Dunnes Stores (equivalent to Jusco in M'sia, smaller maybe) being opened in Henry St and they sold everything at half-price. When I say everything I mean EVERYTHING. So kalau mende tu 30sen jadilah dia 15sen kan!

People went mad, so did I. You could hardly find anything on the shelves, semua sapu bersih! I took the chance to buy stuff for home; new sets of mugs, tall glasses, baking tins, BBQ grills, vases, paper flowers. One time I realized that I was talking with an old lady about how things cannot go wrong when you buy a set of 18 tall glasses for EUR4! And a set of fancy mugs for EUR2!! And then I realized that I was indeed been really talking like a real adult, to people mostly more than double of my age! Oh geez..see how the work is accelerating my aging process. They said you should mingle with younger lads to stay young forever. I probably have to agree that..

So it's Monday again, and I'm back to work. The sun's out and the day has been smooth. Probably the barakah of 1st of Rejab, some things I thought would go wrong went right in the end. 2 weeks really flew, and it's gonna be a month in no time. Thank you Allah, for the correct hunches to poke in needles into the right veins, for the successful IV cannulas, for the quick ABG samples, for the smooth CXR and CT Scan requests, for the free tuna and egg sandwiches for lunch, for the sun and the air I breathe..