Al-Fatihah

yesterday was another day that i'm going to remember in my life..arriving just on time at the college, i was shocked to hear a bad news from Ean..as miserable as she was, the news was from Michigan,US saying that two friends of hers passed away on the day before..Ean was so damn sad and she went home halfway thru classes..later in the afternoon i got a text msg, sort of indication of the tragic event to be 'officially' occured..there goes the msg...

"....As'kum, dapat berita dari Michigan, US dua orang pelajar perempuan 21thn meninggal dunia 6 30pm 9 Oct waktu US selepas buka puasa dilanggar pick up (pick up truck!). Mereka meninggal di tempat kejadian. Seorang bernama Nurhananim ex MRSM Taiping dan seorg lagi Teh Nannie Roshema ex KMYS n ex ACS, Kampar. Al fatihah kepada kedua2 arwah...."

i was told that both girls are going to graduate from their college by december or march..n it occured that after iftar they went back home, but they were wearing black attires that the driver of the truck didn't noticed they were crossing the road...pardon me if i'm wrong but i just quote wut i heard from other ppl, n it's in Him that the truth lies..

Al-Fatihah to both of them..semoga roh mereka dicucuri rahmat dari-Nya dan ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 yang beriman..amin..

high-spirited

the weather's a bit colder than usual today..i woke up late (8 30am) and buckle up to the library..n guess wut by the time i reached there (err here i mean) i was the first one including Farah (a pal) whom i met at the entrance, who were in the library..nerdie????keskes..

today i checked all my junk mails and found out that i still haven't got my mails from the IMAMUKEIRE group into my inbox, instead they all go to the junkies..after straightened things out and catching up with the things they're discussing in it, i checked with yahoo and found out that i'm still not registered to the group..adoii..how come i've already got all the mails without being one of the member..gapo dio nih??fenin fenin..but i suddenly got this spirit inside me after reading all the mails by the professionals and i realized that this is it, it is always been my dream to be involved in these kinda things..the MERCY (ever watched the movie 'selubung'..yes i'm totally influenced by it..haha..it's true), all the voluntary things that u do, going to one place and serve the people there..i hope that one will come true someday..Mak will never allow me to do these things (i once tell her bout this) but i think i won't be satisfied of wut i am without experiencing these kind of things...

yeah it is true that there are a lot of ppl in malaysia that need doctors, y go serving ppl in other countries when u have ppl waiting for ur services in ur own country..but u see it is not evryday that u got the chance to have the experience studying abroad, joining one professional group and have the channel to do all these things..even when u have the chance, it is not evrybody that has the urges to go, as i do.. so i think it is nothing wrong to be doing that..they say u'll be more grateful of wut u r when u see other ppl suffers from the lacking of things that u have...so i really do hope that one day i'll have the chance to go to one place, Iraq, South Africa or anywhere in the world that need me to serve the ppl there..and i'll keep the memories in my heart and let 'em be as guidance for my life ahead..n if i die during performing my duties, i won't be regret it, ever...

so many things to be said, but they just came wordless..

illness or the thing behind it?

the sun started to shine after two days of glooms and strong winds...finally!few friends of mine had their umbrella broken into pieces after walking in the rain and wind (the wind here is so unexpectedly strong..sape yg kurus2 tu will face a hard time walking thru it..this is seriously true!)

i was seriously ill for the last two days..i had a rising temperature with cough and production of green sputum, headache and i can't get to sleep of the intense heat from my body...that was the first time i experienced that kind of illness since i got here last year...started to think of wut had i done wrong before that He gave me such signal to re'muhasabah' myself..hehe..maybe there were some part of me that wasn't really pleased Him..maybe it was my mouth..yeah maybe...think i talked too much lately..hehe...but after hibernated for one whole day under my duvet and continuously taking my medicine, i finally woke up today with some freshness in me and packed my things up ready for the library..yeahh here i am now...but i got these ugly dark circles around my eyes from my illness and i think they are easily recognized by ppl as my friend Ean asked me wut's wrong with 'em just now...takpela..it's not that i'm gonna meet somebody special around here..(err who knows i would?)

so a lil recap on my ramadhan...i performed my 1st tarawikh at the Dublin Mosque..it's common here that they only perform 8 rakaat of tarawikh with 3 rakaat of witir, and there's no shoutings by the bilal in between as happens in M'sia..and as usual for one night they'll finish one juzuk of Al-Quran..there were so many malays there (as predicted, most malays live near the mosque's area) and after the tarawikh finishes i went to one halal shop to buy dates..i had my first breakfast at the Malaysia Hall with most malay women as we had Hari Helwa 2003 on that day..it is an annual event of HELWA (Hal Ehwal Wanita), which is a sub-organization from PPIMI (Persatuan Pelajar Islam Melayu Ireland)..it was a great one and heh guess wut i was the emcee of the day..toink toink....

the next day till last night, i performed my tarawikh at home with my housemates, rotating between ourselves to be the imam and bilal..i think we won't be going to the mosque much as it is quite far from home and the tarawikh only starts at 8pm...plus the wind and cold..and for breakfast..lately we've been so crayzee to cook dishes for breakfast...u know when this kinda craving came, it's like oh shit i have to cook it now or i'll die not having it..haha..up till now we've made curry puff (menggentel karipap sampai kul 2 pagi...), kue ketayap, agar2 cocktail and i was about to make sardine roll last nite when Yani told me that there's a lot of things that are not finished yet in the fridge and yet i'm cooking another one..hehe..yep we have some bits of chocolate cake (from la boulangerie) and the agar2 left in fridge..but i miss murtabak so so much and think of doing some later..relax shu it's only a week of ramadhan..

i have to start working now or i'll regret this later...