gloom @_@ gloomy day @_@

Venue: Beaumont Library
Time: 1415 hrs
Weather: Gloomy!
Mood: Gloomier

I am so much influenced by the weather of the day! today i only have one lecture on Patient Centred Communication and no for others..after dat i went to do my Mini-OSCE and that was it for the day, left me in this place with no mood to study but nothing else to be doing. think i've been checking emails every 15 minutes since i got into the library..sumone..i need emails..gosh i have obsessive-compulsive disorder!

i should be playing tennis with my frens this evening at the Trinity College again, but it was cancelled as the courts are fully booked..penat bawak suar trek extra penuh beg tu. today my Arab frens are opening their stalls (UAE and Kuwait, maybe Bahrain and Jordan also) and they invited us over to their stalls, inshaALLAh i'd probably go, who knows i might meet my greenbutton again today (after several days not seeing one). n i miss their desserts too, last year after tasting one i couldn't stop thinking of other desserts better than theirs. there's an international gourmet nite on saturday nite, i'm cooking sumthing (not gonna tell it here, u have to come if u wanna know)..can't wait to eat hell loads of malaysian food..i've asked my chinese n indian frens to buy halal chicken or beef to cook so i can eat their cookings..hehe..uhh i'm gonna gain some extra lbs for this saturday's occasion! hope for sumone to cook sushi, and can't wait to eat beriyani from Arab's stall, and Azni's satay (yeyey finally...ckp kat Azni nak 5 cucuk tapi cam tak dapek je..)..n today i missed eating kueh koci pulut hitam so much..the kind of craving like the one i had with Mak's Nasik Lemak Sambal Bilis and Sayur Kangkung..(i cried so hard on that one..left Mak to be so serba salah..haha..lawok lawok bile ingat balik..Mak ckp- nanti mak pos sayur kangkung eh? :p)

panggilan solat zuhur..bleep bleep

~nak koci pulut itam!!!

too much is so much

today went really well, unexpectedly (thanks Allah!)..i've been thinking bout many things over the weekend and realized that i really had too much of things lately

..too much of playing..

err correction: less studying and too much of playing..i've bought a basketball (rubber, not standard size, 10euro) and that distracts me so much..whenever i finished my class early, i met with friends at the college and started playing..i really enjoyed it but it really consumed my times (when u start playing, u hardly can stop!)..it was my idea at the first place, i was so numbed with my typical med student life and i wanna have that colors in life again, like in school, down at court playing in the evening or on the field hitting targets acting like a she-robin hood :p but then, the comfort of this kind of freedom left the studies behind i guess..yep i also played tennis down at the Trinity College last Saturday (my college is so small even the bball court is not in the standard measure! what more of a tennis court, or a couple!) been leaving tennis for God-knows how many years, i had a wonderful time playing in the hot weekend sun (thanks Him for the lovely sunny day, at last, in Dublin- my face is a bit sunburnt i think haha)..this left me of so little revisions done over the weekend!

all work and no play make Jack a dull boy..but too much play and less work make him a stupid boy! (my quote--no heart feelings to any Jack out there :p)

..too much of TV..

oh God this is my real problem now..it's like a real strong magnetic field that i can't barely get out of it..too much of drama series that i've been following since the start of them and now i couldn't get myself to not to be involved with them till the end (ya Allah what a stupid explaination!)..and blame all the producers for putting all the cute leading guys in the series, i couldn't stop drooling over them now..haha..better than drooling over real men out in the streets i guess..yeah one sub-sub heading of this sub-heading---- too much of cute guys..it has gotten me to realize how the westerns are really creating an environment of SUPERFICIALS..you must be looking good if u wanna be out there..u must wear the latest designs to be on top of everyone..watching the programme they put on MTV-I wanna have the celeb. look..man people are going way way too much just to look like Brad Pitt or Britney..and plastic surgeons are making all the profits, acting God as if they can..do they ever think that changing their looks would never change the genetic compartments that make up that looks? wut a fool, no way they can escape when realizing that children of theirs have that big crooked nose or ears that really protruded out or wutever things that they deny of, in one fine day..ppl still know, u can run but u can't hide from Allah's creations..

..too much of drifting away from Him..

i realized that i spent less time 'talking' to Him lately..i've lost that sense of istiqamah in my relationship with Him..i was only so close to Him and so much needed Him during those hard times and now i've got what i want, i only do the usual routines, no special attributes, no waking in the middle of the nite calling Him to tell all the unbearable problems..i feel sorry for myself..too much of distractions- sports, songs, studies, series (drama)..and i was so drifted by all this temporary sweet things..went for qiamullail programme last Saturday in Dublin Mosque..realized that i missed listening to the azan so much that i nearly cried hearing one..and that nite was the nite wasn't like any others..despite the many people around, i felt so comfortable 'talking' to Him like there was simply no distraction..ya Allah forgive me, startled by the ingoing nikmat u give despite my ignorance of U..

and again, today everything went unexpectedly well (thanks Him!)

General Election: Student Union

First attempt of writing about politics, starting from the very basic institution, my college..

I see this whole week as a week of flyers, posters, emails, candies, and also promises!

There were flyers given away when you stepped out of the lecture theatre, at the café, anywhere u’d probably be..mentioning the posters hanging around the college, at the students areas in the hospital, in the library; it really brought me to remember my memories of being in a team of promoting a friend back in matriculation..we sneaked out at 2a.m to hang out posters that we made, some simple ones with cartoons and all (I think I keep one poster I made with me, at home maybe!) and we only finished around 4 in the morning..next day my tutorial mates (guys) told me that they saw us the nite before sneaking out to hang up the posters..kantoi! but it was worth it, she was elected for the students board! All sweats paid off..

Back to the original story, yeah I also received many emails from the teams that are competing, promoting themselves with photos and all, and what benefits they’ll bring to the students if they are elected for this year’s Student Union..all 3 teams went down to the theatre (turun padang, the common term in Malay), good strategy I say, they entered the lecture theatre before the lectures began, stealing 15 minutes of the time to give a powerpoint presentations of their missions of the year, how’d they being the Student Union can make your life in the school a better one (the candy part is when at the end of their presentation, they passed around some candies for the students..early bribe, but a pleasant one I guess) most promotes the same objectives, but came in many different ways of doing them; exam formats, exam fees, food in the canteen, cultural events, sports facilities, PRAYER ROOMS, toilets, STUDENT BAR, the intranet, those things students always complaining about, the list never ends..i wonder are these words to be kept or are they just passes of winning?

Here goes the 3 teams that are competing (I’m not mentioning any names for some purposes)

1. The Atlas Team

I would say this team stood up in all 3 groups the most. They have their official t-shirt that they wear during the campaigns, they put posters with their faces on it, and I think they are a better mixture when it comes to their level of institution..one already had a degree, two ppl in their fourth med, two in my class, others are from the 1st med and also pre-med.

Cons:
One candidate made a mistake of talking out loud in a bus how she doesn't like Malaysian performance during last year’s International Night that she puts it in between the other performances for this year’s event (she’s in the International Night’s committees)..usually they said our performance is the best, n they always put it the last one and we always got the standing ovations from the crowd out of it..it doesn’t really matters to me..i’m not involved in the performance or anything concerns with it, but clearly she has brought anger to the ppl who was involved with it, n she might lose a bunch of votes out of that..words have already been spread, and she’ll be regretting what she said later..she has created an environment of hatred towards herself from the very beginning (an irritating person I say)

The other one from my class, he’s a good guy I think, but my friends hate him for being boastful and acting like a real brilliant student in class by asking questions that are clearly advanced of the topics (yeah he’s the one with the degree)

From my P.O.V:
It’s good to have 2 Muslim representatives in this team, but the only problem is that are they really practice Islam as their way of life. Ppl told me that the one from the pre-med is a good guy, yeah I think he’s a very friendly guy that befriended most people from different backgrounds. And the one in the 4th med (gosh he’s cute!:P) looks like a very shy guy, seems pretty normal to me. but what matters most is, are these people able to carry out their tasks in fulfilling the needs of the Muslim students of this college (prayer room, halal food, etc). if they are, then it’s good. If they’re not, then the Muslims have clearly made a mistake of voting this team. (I dunno why my Arab friends keep telling me to vote for this team. What’d they see in them? This time it really goes paradoxically between them I think, not like the usual them like before, always opposing stuff like the college balls, class gatherings and all)

One thing is, I’ve got a feeling that this team is not the one that really matters how ‘minor’ people like the Malaysians feel, moreover our needs.

2. The A Team

This is quite a controversial team. No single white people in the team, can you believe it? What were they thinking when they were forming their team? I mean, clearly they won’t win the hearts of the Irish and most white people from US or Canada (yeah surely there’ll be some exceptions, I’m not saying all!). The candidate that’s competing for the president is my class’s former Representative (Class Rep in our First Med) and yeah he did a brilliant job being as one before. I guess he is expanding his wings and polishing his leadership ability in the run as the pres.

Cons:
Bad mixtures of candidates’ level of institution. Too many from the first med, one from the pre-med, the others from my class, the 3rd med. They are a bunch of great people, it’s just that if they can mix up the other people from the 4th med, that’d be better. The more experienced u are in a med school, the better usage people found u. also, less interesting campaigns compared to the atlas team, no fancy t-shirt and no fancy posters (but I like their posters saying that ‘We Speak Your Language’ which they do in many languages including Malay- yeah there’s one Malaysian candidate in this team, an Indian girl though). Other thing as I already said, no white representative, which is fine to me, but thinner their chance to win this election I guess.

From my P.O.V:
The one in the run for pres, he’s a Muslim guy. When he was our class rep, what I observed was he wasn’t really followed the religions’ rules. Whether he had to, due to the situational demands (u have to join most activities held in your class if u’re a class rep, even though attending the college ball and afterparty at some pubs, man u just have to mix around I guess!) or he did that intentionally, only God knows best. But in our second med, I happened to bump into him few times at the prayer room, and he was clearly a lot friendlier to the Malaysians compared to before. I’m not going to interpret how things going on in him, but I do hope if his team is picked, he will fulfil the needs of the Muslims here. Yeah there are 3 Muslims representatives in this team, but I’m not sure whether they are the practice ones. (have you ever wondered how responsibilities can change one’s faith? I always do!)

I do think this team will care about the needs of the minors, as most of them are coloured people. I dunno.

3. Team ‘With It”

This is the weird one, I’ve never seen most of their faces and I wonder where do they come from. Haha. Most are from the 4th med, and only one from my class and one from the school of pharmacy. I think it’s weird to vote for people that’s unfamiliar to u, don’t u think so? I don’t have much to talk on this team, though they seemed to have a good presentation (with smart looks and all), I don’t know a single person out of them and the one’s competing for pres is a woman. Outruled!

At the end of the day,

Most teams have the same main objectives
1. to make sure that the students have great (and fair) learning experiences
2. to make sure that the students have sufficient facilities and have fun throughout the course

So how do you decide when they all promised the fairly equal and same things?

My answer is, I would decide on the one that can fulfil and ease the life of a Muslim student here in this college, my life as a Muslim here. I don’t know bout others, maybe they have their own evaluation on things (like a friend of mine said ‘ikut masing2la nak pilih siapa, sendiri punya opinion!’). But when things are even now, it has come to personal reasons to be considered I guess, like religion and own needs. Whether this person I chose is the one that helps me to keep my prayer time on schedule by proposing a proper prayer room at the library, or whether this person is the one striving hard on doing charity works that would end up feeding the mouth of the Church people, u decide it!

And my vote? It’s for me to know and keep it as only mine.

i'm ZOHNked

stop a while in the midst of my studies, i was surfing the net for CBS website on the latest SURVIVOR: ALL STARS, my current fav. show on tv, apart from Friends, Scrubs (love JD so!), ER, the O.C, Malcolm, Futurama..err macam banyak je nak list..haha

i still had the 'heat' of last nite's survivor, watching my fav Ethan Zohn playing his game in his own fairness, (i mean, who'd apologize after causing the delay in the run of immunity challege?)..i thot he was going to be voted out last nite after the thing he'd done to Mogo Mogo, but again, honesty saved the day!but i knew his day's coming, so soon..they'll never let a winner wins again after all..

and i couldn't be more right, yes he'd already been voted out actually..that show in US television is 3 episodes in advanced compared to in Ireland, so they've already put on the review of the last 3 episodes which haven't been shown here (i shouldn't have opened the page in the first place! now that Ethan's gone, i've lost a bit of my interest of the show)..and one more important thing that i'd read bout him, man he's a JEW!!kecewa? yeah maybe a bit..it's not like the greatest disappointment ever (i'm not gonna marry him in any way even if he's a Christian, or even a Muslim..kenelah berpijak di bumi yang nyata!) but yeah, when u like someone, u'd hope for the good things to be under his belt right? and for me, i'll try my best avoiding things that are clearly opposite to my faith..

learning from others..take a case, a woman and her guy, deeply in love, BUT in 2 different religion..if the woman starts going so much crazy of the man, she'd see everything of him to be good, starting from himself, then his family, then his job, than his other-God knows business, then who knows she might also ends up liking his faith (nauzubillah jadi kat Muslim sister)..love is blind (so true!) macam kes2 yg berlaku kat M'sia..how a well-educated Muslim girl, with a very religious background, ended up running with her Christian boyfriend, erupting chaos to the whole Muslim community and declaring herself to be converting her religion..kering airmata mak ayah..jerih payah hantar belajar agama..

back to my kind of story..so i was a bit disappointed to be knowing this..but he is what he is..no one can change that..how good he played during the game, how kind of him to be doing the things he's doing now (wanna know wut i'm talking bout here?log on to www.grassrootsoccer.org), he's still a jew..satu kaum yg dilaknat oleh Allah s.w.t..all good deeds done by him couldn't repay the things his men are doing to our brothers and sisters in Palestine..

mentioning this brings sadness in my heart..i clearly remembered the pictures shown in the slides of Dr Mamoun Mobayed during the IMAM's (International Medical Assoc. of Malaysia) 1st Scientific Congress last month..he went on a trip to Palestine to educate the medical professionals and people there regarding PTSD (post traumatic stress disorders) and many other psychological issues faced by the people of Palestine..he took many photos with him thruout his course there and he presented 'em on slides during his session..it brought tears to one's eyes seeing the photos of the children, how they suffer growing up in that kind of environment, walking to school with tanks escorting them, wake up in the morning by the sounds of bullets..and one picture that i'll never forget is the one when two Israelis soldiers were taking a photo with a dead man on their feet, looking so happy, after killing the man! on that particular moment i swear i'd be hating jews for the rest of my life..

terasa puas bila dah lepaskan semua yang terpendam

lately i was so overloaded with problems that i exaggerated every small things that happened to me..rasa sangat bersalah bila fikir balik..i don't deserve to be doing all things i've done..betapa pemurahnya Tuhan Maha Pencipta...ampunkan hambamu yang lemah ini..

the paradox of life

there's element in life that u don't like, but that's the most thing u'll likely spend most of ur time with

there's people that u despise so much yet he's the one u spend most time thinking about

there's thing u wanted to do badly but that's the thing u numbered last on your 'should do' list

there's people trying to play God though they know they'll never be one

...

ever felt that u had enough of things?i do now..

(nak pegi ke tak kelas esok ni???kalau tak pegi sendiri yang rugi..kalau pegi rasa tak worth untuk sekeping 3euro bus ticket semata mata nak dengar one hour lecture je..and it's not a lecture, only an SDL (self directed learning) session..dahla blaja Basic Life Support balik..dulu dah amek course tu..nak pegi ke tak..pegi..tak..pegi..tak..macamana ni Labu??)

dear blog

things happened..like em or not..

-lost my 16MB Secure Digital card for my DiGicam..think i dropped it somewhere during the trip to Malahide Castle and Portmarnock..

-quick run into my BOI (Bank of Ireland) account during lunchtime..something wrong with the figure..did some calculations and think i'm short of few hundreds euro..how am i gonna pay for MAS ticket to KL this Friday..think think think..where'd the money go?crushing pain inside my chest..hate this feelings

-been wasting my time so much..couldn't concentrate on things i'm doing..hurt me inside seeing people doing their work..untouched pathology n microb notes..

-accidently spilled clear water on pathology text book..hideous look on top of it..kills my mood everytime i look at it..good Lord..help..

-think of returning a book (clinical exam.-Talley, O'Connor) for the ticket bus..found out that i've passed the returning date..have to find way to buy the tickets..no borrowing from fren..pleaseee..

-have few days more for dateline of Al-Akhbar's work..yet i haven't start a single word..

-think how pathetic i am to be telling these things here..wanna call home n tell Mak all my problems..realized i just finished the calling card last time i called..n also..don't wanna make them all worry of my problems..they'll end up putting money in my account again..too many times for this whole academic year..kesian Mak ngan Abah...bukan aku sorg je anak diorg..

tired..feel like wanna close my eyes n erase all things inside my mind..feel like running away to a place people don't know me..miss spending my evening staring at the waves..doing math homework on the white sands..end up with sands between the pages..watching the sun disappears from the horizon..cycle back home...hmm..those times..

..jangan mengalah dengan ujian sekali ini..

Jour Deux: Meaux-Chessy(Disneyland Parc)-Meaux

We woke up late, (really late!!) the sun had already shined brightly outside. Tak sedar langsung!!penat sangat (shouldn’t really be the reason to wake up late!!)..last night I was so mad at the whole situation that I forgot I did had a few conversations with this hotel’s owner..he’s a Muslim guy from Iran, seemed like a nice guy..he asked us how ‘d we managed to get here and shocked when I said we took a cab..tau pun mahal..dah tu awatnye buat hotel murah jauh2...(haha laughing at myself again)..and he also gave us the direction to go to the Chessy train station by bus..much more cheaper and took less time than the cab..sah kena tipu last night…

That day I woke up with prayers and hopes that the day was gonna be one of our best days in life..and it was indeed..we were out to search for the bus stop at 9 something, I didn’t quite remember the exact time it was..the fact was we were already forgotten wut the hotel guy said to us about the directions..so we walked to pass the nearby LIDL and found the highway..err mane ade bus stop??we walked for 5 mins ahead from where we were and hesitated as there was no sign of any bus stop..we decided to walk back and find somebody to ask for direction..so we were in the LIDL parking area again..hmm..sape nak ditanya ni??ko la tanye…err nak ckp ape??(sesi tunjuk menunjuk sape yg nak ditanya sapa yang nak menanya)..aaa gasak je la…

Ade sorg makcik baru parking kereta dia..

Moi: Err excusez moi madame, est-ce que vous pouvez parler en Englais??
(excuse me madam, do u know how to speak English?)

Elle: N’est pas du tout.
(don’t know at all)

cett...kecewa…itulah time blaja French dulu Mademoiselle Sheila suruh blaja bebetul camne nak tanye direction in French takmo dengar..aaa rasakan…

after asking the same question to few other people, and got the same answer from all, we decided to walk back to the hotel and ask the hotel’s owner once again..the French people are really a bunch of arrogant people who won’t ever speak other languages other than theirs—this was said by my French teacher Mademoiselle Sheila herself in one of her classes, I remember this before and didn’t quite believe it at first, I mean, c’on this is already 21st century, surely that kind of mentality has at least already been rejected by some if not all..English is crucial, wut more if u are living in this part of the world in this very century!never knew the mentality’s still there in certain places..sabar sabar sabariah…

so we really went back..before that we decided to buy some gateaux, fromages ou anything for food that we can eat from LIDL..there were lots of people inside, yelah dah murah..cam Giant and Carrefour kat m’sia la jugak..and ALDI kat Ireland ni…for only 2/3 stuff we were trying to buy cost us nearly half an hour of queuing, plus some odd and awkward looks from other people, old people and children mainly..wut in the world did this two ladies were doing in this small remote area, they must be thinking..pedulilah..nak buat camne lagi??buat bodo je laa…(our favourite phrase during the whole 7 days of journey..ayat redha..haha..ayat senario..rindunye nak tgk senario!)

this time we really got the direction right..by observation we took a short cut to the bus stop, passing by the rear of LIDL thru an area of houses, took like 5 mins and there we were waiting for the bus..tgk jam, alamak dah pukul 10 lebey!we might be missing the first hour in Disneyland!!!the bus came few moments later..

Yanie: Aku rasa aku nampak orang melayu dalam bas ni..
Me: Ye ke??kat mane??
Yanie: Depan skali!
Me: \(@_@)/

Seb baik rabun..tak nampak pun…emm berape tambang pulak nih?

Bus driver: (speaking French very very fast!)

Matila..pakcik ni sah sah tak tau ckp English!alamak dah perasan dua org melayu kat seat depan sekali..

After about a minute of us trying to guess the bus fair and the bus driver trying to tell us the fair, I finally gave the coins I had in my hand and trusted the driver to give the change back..actually it wasn’t that hard to figure out the fair, I think we were some kind of ashamed and kalut of the fact that there were 2 malay guys there, and I think I saw them smiling (more to ‘sengih’ing) and whispering to each other, maybe of us...menyampahnye!bukannye nak tolong..tolong gelak adela…(malu gilerrr time tu.) wuttheheck..i’m not going to meet them again anyway..so be it..

Bus fair = 2.60euro pp, so 5.20euro for two, deux six-ans euro pour une personne...bukan susah pun..

As the description on the internet said, the hotel is just 15 minutes from Disneyland!!from far I could see many people walking happily to the main gate..we walked off the bus with huge smiles on our faces..macam dalam iklan colgate…we passed by the Disney Village on the left before reaching the gate..malas nak masuk dlm tu..we just took few pictures there and proceeded to the gate (Gate of Moria..eheh macam LOTR le pulak)..

Goofy and Donald Duck here we come!!

Entrance fees= 39euro pp..boleh beli handbag satu utk Mak..tambah sket dapat lagi satu leather purse utk Abah..

We decided to play till the very last penny of the fees!and we did…I think that day my inner child popped out of me, felt like I was in my white gown with my black hat again, running over one place to another searching for the best ride possible…I couldn’t put into words wut really had happened, there were loads of them..if only I knew how to put pictures here (man technologies had really left me behind)..basically we went on most of the interesting rides..The Space Mountain, how can I forget this ride, felt like my brain had been sucked out of the skull, and Indiana Jones’ backward ride..giler best..to the most ‘kanak-kanak riang-ria’s rides’ like the MadHutter’s Giant Tea Cup’s, Dumbo’s, Peter Pan’s, and more!we took a lot of photos, I like the Fantasyland with the Alice in the Wonderland’s giant Labyrinth, and the Discoveryland where they did the 3D show of Honey I Shrunk The Audience..felt so real! At 4pm there was the Disney’s Grand Parade, with all the cartoon’s characters and nicely decorated cars..i like the Aladdin’s guy…cute!(proven true by others..quite a heartthrob!) and at 8pm there was the Disney’s Fantalusia Parade, sort of closing parade for the day..by that time we were so tired and hungry..we realized that we only ate 3 pieces of Bourbon chocolate biscuits, 2 thin pieces of swiss rolls and a small packet of Walkers for the whole day, and amazed by that..we did felt hungry for times but I think we easily got distracted by the excitements of the place..haha..in fact we only took our break for solat and no for others..

On the journey back, I couldn’t stop thinking of the things we went thru for the day, and the day before..all the worries paid off the happiness we got for the day..the strenuous works for first professional exams, tears with laughters..every sweat paid off..

And wut would be better?if I can bring my little nephew, Naqib with me to the park..sure dia suke jumpe toy story punye characters..rindunye kat budak mulut becok tu…

morning blues

Another 2 days to go for the school to reopen after a week break of Easter Holiday..for the past 4 days I’ve been wasting my times doing nothing, man I really should work on something that could bring benefits to me and my life..and my life is my religion..aku ni pelupa..org lain berlumba lumba pi menuntut ilmu agama..ilmu duniawi ada depan mata..ilmu ukhrawi bukan senang nak dapat..yang susah tu lah yang berharga sangat..

Hmmm..

First thing’s first..i called home this morning..finally after a week of trying to get into the line but failed..i had a long chat with Mak, she was on MC for the day as she went to see the doctor for regular check up..she has kidney stones, and due for laser treatment (again) next week..wish her the best, I’ll always send my prayers for U Mak! genetics stuff, Arwah Pak Tuk (grandpa) had it also..

“masa duk Dungun (T’ganu) dulu selalu sgt makan udang ngan sotong (seafood) tu yg kene batu karang..” hehe..Mak always says that..and it’s true..yelah dah duk dekat ngan laut..we seldom ate chickens as meals, no financial reasons wut so ever, it’s just that Mak doesn’t eat chicken that much...she always has this doubt on the slaughtering manners of the animals that should be slaughtered the religion’s way..suruh bela ayam ngan lembu sendiri taknak pulak..haha..usually she had to see the people who does the slaughterings then only she’ll be satisfied and eat the chicken, or beef, wuteveritwas..itu yang buat hati jadi bersih..malangnye anak2 dia tak ikut jejak langkah Mak..

we talked, the usual things..and as usual I asked her about any plan of coming here to Dublin (tak sabar nak tunjuk Mak kolej yg kecik tu and city center yg lebey kurang macam Bandar kajang je..haha)..Mak asked me whether I do enjoy it being in the hospital..very much indeed, though I’m kind of sick of travelling by bus!and again I tell her bout plans of joining MERCY and going on missions, testing her again with my words..haha..mentioning about the IMAM’s trip to Jordan again, though it is cleared I had no permission on that..

"orang nak jadi cam Dokter Jemilah (President of MERCY M'sia) tu..”..i played her..

“Doktor Jemilah ke sape2 la org lain yg pegi tu..family dia dah ade ramai doktor..family kita Acu sorg la yg baru nak jadi..nanti sape la pulak nak rawat Mak kalau Acu pegi missions..”

“haha nanti Acu hire la nurse sorg jaga Mak..bukan lama pun pi..seminggu dua je..(bunyi cam poyo jek)”

“seminggu Acu pegi seminggu la Mak tak gerak..”

“Mak nak risau apa..kalau dah ajal kat mane2 pun mati jugak…kat Mesia ke..kat Dublin ke..”..(pandainya mulut cakap..iman dah lengkap ke?amal dah cukup ke?)

All the mother-daughter kind of talks..jodoh?hehe as usual this old lady always worries of her only daughter (of all) that has no guy in her life yet..Adik pun lagi advance..(Firdaus, just finished his SPM)..am I being choosy??K.Luli once told me,

“bagus sebenarnye memilih ni, maknanye kita akan cari org yg ada qualities yg kita suke aje..dan kita akan cuba elakkan yg kita tak nak..”

I agree with that..bukan memilih, takkan nak say yes to anybody yg offer kan? Kene timbang the qualities, outer and inner, the latter being the most important..i remember this quotation,

“Kalau nak cari yg kaya, dapatla kekayaan dia, kalau nak cari pasangan yg cantik, dapatla yg cantik aje..tapi kalau cari yg ada IMAN, insya Allah dapat semua…”

insya Allah..

Mak was kind of jesting when she said

“senang2 amek je la “X” ni (bukan nama sebenar), kawan Angah kat UIA, skang buat PhD, ade degree ilmu wahyu..haritu putus tunang..kesian..”

ewah2 am I some kind of rebound equipment??hehe..i know this guy Mak was talking about..he was in Tangkak during Angah’s wedding..jadi saksi time Angah nikah..baik sgt..rasa tak padan..maklumla..aku ni tak smpi tahap tu lagi..tunggula..the time is not here yet..(hey I’m just 20 ok)..when the time comes, and I’ll be well-equipped inshaAllah..now all I can do is PRAY for the right guy..

nak cerita pasal jodoh smpi esok tak habis

and today I got the chance to talk to Naqib, my cute and chubby little nephew..Along came to the house after fetching him from his pre-school..(he goes to the pre-school in Mak’s primary school, that actually meant for 6 yrs old children, though he’s only 5..tapi perangai macam budak besar!)

Naqib: Acu jangan lupe belikan mainan untuk Akib tau..beli baju spiderman yang ade keluar spiderweb kat tangan dia tu..beli saiz besar sikit..sebab Akib ni dah gemuk tau Acu..

Geramnye ngan si becok ni!

And I was shocked when he said

Naqib: Acu boleh tak tolong belikan Akib laptop yg untuk orang besar punye..laptop Akib ni tak bestla..Acu belikan Akib laptop macam yang Acu dengan Ola (3rd sibs) punye tu..yang ada tempat tengok CD tu..laptop Akib ni game je banyak..Akib nak tengok CD kat laptop Akib..

I was laughing so hard hearing this..budak2 zaman sekarang..kecik2 dah main laptop..aku ni masuk universiti baru merasa..(Mak and Abah are really pampering this child..spoil la nanti bile besar..a laptop on his 5th b’day??—> children learning laptop..with games and all..aku dulu dapat teddybear sekor pun dah syukur..ni ade hati nak demand laptop org besar pulak..)

At this moment I am so badly want to go home!!but I’m not the kind of person that likes to do the countdown of days to go..lagi sengsara jiwa..i let ‘em come naturally I guess..

Aiyark perut dah bunyi..have to eat now..been ‘fasting’ since morning..

Little quotation from the little man that gives huge meaning to me..

“Acu bila Acu balik nanti Akib tak payahla pegi school tau nanti..Akib temankan Acu duduk rumah..takkan Acu nak duduk sorg2 kat rumah…”

haha nice try..

Why I Like To Be In The Library?

Time: 1309 hrs (21 mins to Pathology lecture)
Date: 6th April 04
Venue: The Library, Beaumont Hospital

Why I like to be in the library?

Reason: coz I learn a lot being in the library.

The moment I stepped in, I saw few people in their white coats (few were even in their scrubs!) and stethoscopes hanging on their necks, some were reading the papers, few sat in front of the computers, checking emails or might be reading the latest online journals or any medical news on the net.

Lesson 1: I am not the most brilliant person yet even if I already got a medical degree, learning is an active process that I should be doing till the very last of my breath.

I was climbing the stairs to go to the first floor, and I was taking a quick glimpse to the area where they put the newspapers down at the ground floor, there were few colleagues of mine, reading today’s papers, maybe checking on the latest sports news..i dunno

Lesson 2: Lunch break is simply not the time where I should really have my relaxation moments, I can relax my head off whilst gaining some latest news that’s happening around the world, even the sports news. “Make sure U read the papers”—quoted by my Professor of Surgery this morning when he was giving some sort of pep talk to us—amazingly his words are easily being picked up by those people downstairs, but not me..(I spent my lunch break eating my lunch-of course- and playing fuzz ball...2 games..i lost both to Aida..nak salahkan these supinators and pronators of mine, mmg tabley..dah tak reti main ngaku je laa…it was fun though)..bile nak pupuk budaya membaca akhbar ni..pemalass…

While searching for a nice place to sit, I was kind-of surveying the whole first floor area, searching for a place that I think would be nice for me to settle my things down..found few friends of mine, khusyuknye baca buku..one gave me a smile and I smiled back…

Lesson 3: this is the most important lesson I always learn when I go to the library, even the brightest students steal times to do revisions..when I think of that, I instantly got this urge to study (aura semacam), realizing that I am far more down to that level..usual thing u heard “ala dia tu mmg genius dah..study sket2 pun dah okey..”..and being in the library, I prove that to be wrong..this guy, I think he got full marks for one subject during our term exam (cerita lama, term 2 if I’m not mistaken)..i thot he is the kind of genius guy, he has that genius look; timid, talk when he needs to, always giving good remarks during tutorial session (he was in the same tutorial group as mine)..n yeah this genius guy is the one’s sitting few seats from me, studying the thick book during lunch time…patutla bijak bestari…

So today I fully agree with the equation
USAHA&USAHA&USAHA + DOA + TAWAKKAL = KOMFEM BOLEH!

(luahan perasaan org yg tepaksa redha dgn classmates dia yg rajin2 dan bijak2 belaka..nak wat camne..)