i'm ZOHNked

stop a while in the midst of my studies, i was surfing the net for CBS website on the latest SURVIVOR: ALL STARS, my current fav. show on tv, apart from Friends, Scrubs (love JD so!), ER, the O.C, Malcolm, Futurama..err macam banyak je nak list..haha

i still had the 'heat' of last nite's survivor, watching my fav Ethan Zohn playing his game in his own fairness, (i mean, who'd apologize after causing the delay in the run of immunity challege?)..i thot he was going to be voted out last nite after the thing he'd done to Mogo Mogo, but again, honesty saved the day!but i knew his day's coming, so soon..they'll never let a winner wins again after all..

and i couldn't be more right, yes he'd already been voted out actually..that show in US television is 3 episodes in advanced compared to in Ireland, so they've already put on the review of the last 3 episodes which haven't been shown here (i shouldn't have opened the page in the first place! now that Ethan's gone, i've lost a bit of my interest of the show)..and one more important thing that i'd read bout him, man he's a JEW!!kecewa? yeah maybe a bit..it's not like the greatest disappointment ever (i'm not gonna marry him in any way even if he's a Christian, or even a Muslim..kenelah berpijak di bumi yang nyata!) but yeah, when u like someone, u'd hope for the good things to be under his belt right? and for me, i'll try my best avoiding things that are clearly opposite to my faith..

learning from others..take a case, a woman and her guy, deeply in love, BUT in 2 different religion..if the woman starts going so much crazy of the man, she'd see everything of him to be good, starting from himself, then his family, then his job, than his other-God knows business, then who knows she might also ends up liking his faith (nauzubillah jadi kat Muslim sister)..love is blind (so true!) macam kes2 yg berlaku kat M'sia..how a well-educated Muslim girl, with a very religious background, ended up running with her Christian boyfriend, erupting chaos to the whole Muslim community and declaring herself to be converting her religion..kering airmata mak ayah..jerih payah hantar belajar agama..

back to my kind of story..so i was a bit disappointed to be knowing this..but he is what he is..no one can change that..how good he played during the game, how kind of him to be doing the things he's doing now (wanna know wut i'm talking bout here?log on to www.grassrootsoccer.org), he's still a jew..satu kaum yg dilaknat oleh Allah s.w.t..all good deeds done by him couldn't repay the things his men are doing to our brothers and sisters in Palestine..

mentioning this brings sadness in my heart..i clearly remembered the pictures shown in the slides of Dr Mamoun Mobayed during the IMAM's (International Medical Assoc. of Malaysia) 1st Scientific Congress last month..he went on a trip to Palestine to educate the medical professionals and people there regarding PTSD (post traumatic stress disorders) and many other psychological issues faced by the people of Palestine..he took many photos with him thruout his course there and he presented 'em on slides during his session..it brought tears to one's eyes seeing the photos of the children, how they suffer growing up in that kind of environment, walking to school with tanks escorting them, wake up in the morning by the sounds of bullets..and one picture that i'll never forget is the one when two Israelis soldiers were taking a photo with a dead man on their feet, looking so happy, after killing the man! on that particular moment i swear i'd be hating jews for the rest of my life..

terasa puas bila dah lepaskan semua yang terpendam

lately i was so overloaded with problems that i exaggerated every small things that happened to me..rasa sangat bersalah bila fikir balik..i don't deserve to be doing all things i've done..betapa pemurahnya Tuhan Maha Pencipta...ampunkan hambamu yang lemah ini..