new year ahead

alhamdulillah i've started my new academic year today with my lecture at 3pm n ended at 5..i was quite disoriented at first, maybe not used to the whole lecture situation thing or i'm not so sure y..before the lecture started, i looked at the people around me, damn it is soo good to see evryone around with hell loads of changes noticed..some straighten their hair, many changes the colors, one girl started to wear tudung/scarf..an arab girl, guys--some had their head bald, some did color their hair (eww), many put on weights but some got thinner..last person that caught up my eyes was my last's crush--still the same old him with the same hairstyle n the same georgeous face..haha..i'm not exaggerating ok..it is damn true...

today i'm gonna plan my year ahed...this year is not the one that i'm gonna regret..i've got to really orientate myself n have my schedule for revision..dunno how to do it but i'll try though..i dun want to have the last minute revision thing anymore, not in my First Prof Exam...arghh i'm starting to feel the heat of it...

maybe my next post ahead won't be a long one like before....

Angels or Devils?

i stopped writing the topic before that i should've continued for a while...a terrible thing happened to me like 5 mins ago n killed my mood..it really do...so i stopped my work on my project n wrote this...felt like crying but daaa i'm in the library..i won't just broke down n cry..definitely not here!

i was sitting at my place doing my work till i saw Eamonn n Adam, my irish classmates walking towards me...this was my first time seeing them since last holidays so i was sooo happy n waved at them...i kinda missed them, their jokes n all but the thing that i didn't expect at the first place happened...THEY JUST OPEN THEIR HANDS N HUGGED ME!!damn it i felt like crying but i really controlled myself n just smiled..we chatted a few things n they got out of the library as their friends were waiting for them outside....hwaaa i was gonna save that for my hubby one day (haha) but now they took it from me...damn it...

my hands are still trembling of the shock....it might be that they haven't see Muslims for 4 months that they forgot how we behave....God forgive me for that one..it was never my intention to be hugged like that..sob sob...(to add salt to the wound, TODAY IS 27 OF REJAB, THE MONTH FULL OF BLESSES..damn it...i'll remember this day for the rest of my life)

This is the last time
That I'm ever gonna come here tonight
This is the last time - I will fall
Into a place that fails us all - inside
I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
But fighting all the demons will take time
It will take time
The angels they burn inside for us
Are we ever
Are we ever gonna learn to fly
The devils they burn inside of us
Are we ever gonna come back down
Come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

by Dishwalla

to Smallville fans, u might have heard this one if u did see the episode when Ryan (the boy that reads minds) died...sad songs..recently i'm soo crazy of this one....

..........chasing away the devils inside me...........

the past, present and future I : the past

my PAST..

a couple of days before my flight, i went out with Pah (i considered this one as my all-out outing)...i SPENT quite a lot n i really get myself off that day..we went to midvalley n i guess that was my first time watching 2 movies in a day..haha..we watched 'Pirates on the Carribean' in the morning (damn i lurve this movie a lot!!had a real gr8 laugh n that Sparrow guy is really something!!) and had 'The Italian Job' in the evening (this one was gr8 too, love the Mini Coopers!)..i dunno wut has gotten into me but i guess that was like my carry forward on movies..i won't be seeing any in Dublin..

i ATE a lot too!before the movie i was so starved that i bought a large hot dog at the 1901's (God i've already miss 'em)...after the movie i ate brownie ice creams at Baskin Robbins..arghh thinking of them made my mouth watered..and before going back that night we went to the Chilli's..i had grill chicken fillet with potato blended with cheese i think and they were fabulous!!!

Pah spent the night at my house n went back on the next day..the before my flight, i was filled with sorrow..i was never ready to go back...i called my closest frens to say g'bye n waited for Ola to came home, she arrived at about 2a.m just to send me to the airport in the morning..

so i went back to Dublin whether i like it or not...

the journey was ok (except for the fact that i couldn't get myself to sleep all the way in the plane) till i reached Heathrow Airport..apparently Timah (my classmate) had problems with her ticket, she was not in the list of the passengers...so she had to claim her baggage again and re-check in back at the flight connections counter..Jazree (a pal in Dublin), Nana (my classmates too) and me accompanied her to claim her baggage but it happened that in the end i was the only one who got thru the immigration to accompany Timah..i hesitated at first as i really doubt myself of handling such situation but at last i gathered myself up n kept telling myself that i can do it, for the sake of myself and my friend who was in trouble..

so we managed to get her baggage n we WALKED to terminal one (for those who know how big Heathrow Airport is, u'll understand how far is to walk from terminal 3 to terminal 1)..arriving there, i was so shocked to see the q's, it was so long that i doubt it i'll managed to catch my next flight on time..again i tried to be optimist, so i put Timah in que n i ran to ask one officer, telling all my problems n he asked me to go to ticket sales counters..i went there n the lady there said Timah would have to buy a new ticket to Dublin as she was never in the list actually..so i bought it for her (she didn't bring any cash) and after all the runnings and worryings, we managed to get our flight to Dublin at 5.40pm...i was damn tired till i lost my appetite...

to look back, i'm glad that i was there with Timah at that time, though i actually regret it to be in such trouble at first...let say if i wasn't there, she would've been stranded at the airport for God-knows how many days..firstly, she was the one with the problem, so she surely had her worries all the times that she might not capable of thinking clearly because of it..secondly, she didn't bring any money and her credit card was over the limit..thirdly, if i was in her shoes at that time ALONE, i would've cried myself out of the worries n scared...

saviour of the day?no..i just did wut friends do...

to be continued....

my unfinished job II

this one i wrote on the night before my flight..i coudn't finished writing 'em as i had to do some 'finishing touches' on my baggge, throwing away the unimportants and wrapping up some stuff...

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Everyone seems so gloom n put on their long face…mad at me?might be..but y?I’m not so sure!I really do!or they’re just sad…are they?these things keep on playing in my mind till I’m not sure I can handle thinking of them anymore…ok here’s the situation..i’m going back tomorrow morning but now everyone keeps muting around at me…my heart aches inside, no one knows…god tell me wut had I done wrong?

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up till now i'm still puzzled up by that matter..i asked Mak at the airport before my flight and she said nothing was wrong, said that Along was sad as she couldn't gave me much esp on money as she has some other priorities to be considered..hmm..are they for sure?i'm still not sure..let them be as secrets..

my unfinished job I

huh.. i didn't finished writing this one...but i'll just post it...i have sumthing on my mind to be put here later, maybe tonite..

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i only have few things to be settled up for my preparation of going back..(do i have to have one???i'm not so sure...)..lately i've been receiving phone calls n text messages from my friends who'll be going to UK n Eire, seeking for my advice on things to bring n stuff..haha as if i'm too good at it..(few of them are new frens that i met during attended the pre-departure prog. for new RCSI students and the other is Ude, my high schoolmate who'll be going to University of Cardiff in the same field as mine..g'luck Ude!)...actually they reminded me of my time last year, when i was in their shoes..but i'm a lil bit mo lucky than them as i have Along to gimme some advices on it (Along graduated from Leicester University, UK in the year 2000,if i'm not mistaken, in Computer Sc.)..

for few days i've been posting new entries in the EVENING..never before i did that as for past few days i didn't use the internet at night..i kept falling asleep earlier than my usual time, funny is it but i'm not so sure y..nak kata penat sgt takla jugak..hmm..

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i stopped there..looking at my blog, i actually posted the entry entitled 'the wedding' twice..i've deleted one of 'em but it just stay there...huh let it be lah..malas dah nak usik....

sad 4 the fact that i'm going back tomorrow...

counting days

i faced each day in this week with mixtures of feelings..glad to go back to dublin a lil bit early so i can settle my things up n start my new academic year high-spiritedly...BUT sad to be leaving home n things inside (family esp Naqib my beloved nephew n also Tomato my cat :)..) if ppl ask me 2 months before i'd say i love to go back rite now (due to the boredom as my hang outs frens were in varsities) but when the time came (now!) felt like sreaming out loud that i dun wanna go back..not now!

i haven't pack my things up yet..i just gather them around near my big bag..i think i've already got all things that i'm supposed to bring back except for some stuff..specs--have to get them this evening in bangi..baju kurung--have to ask Mak to get them from mak cik mah today..fleece!--i'll ask Ola or Along again bout this..if only Along didn't damaged the one that i bought in Penang..sob sob..buku panduan ibadah--have to buy some in warta when i go taking my specs...

i still wondering wut would i be wearing at d airport this time..last year i wore black n white suit..not sure bout this year..dun wanna wear sumthing too formal..hey i'm not a freshman anymore...i'll be in my SECOND MEDICAL YEAR in just few days..huuhu..glad bout that...(but sad bout the fact that i have to take my 1st Prof. exam this year....hwaaa)

i really hope that i won't face any problem at d airport this time..Yanie told me she faced some during her flight last week...excess baggage...some had to pay..said Ean had to pay up till rm900..damn..i dun wanna do that...i've spent too much of my parents money...not anymore...

gonna miss my frens...KETAPUs, SSPs, n also the one out there that i always think about...

..the wedding...

I’ve already expected this since I first launched this blog = a delay in updating the pages n the I-have-some-other-important-stuff-to-do syndrome. Lately I’ve been so busy with Angah’s wedding (my topic for this time, I guess) n I was also busy finding a house in Dublin (gr8 news, we managed to find one in Harrington street, a 2 double bedrooms apartment, not that big BUT really close to my college!!that’s the best part plus the rent is lower than last time’s and gas and ntl bills (cable for tv..ala2 astro gitu) are included in the rent!!)

So back to the real topic..

I guess if I were to put the whole story of my bros wedding, I would be typing this page out till tomorrow morning (sigh!) but wut I experienced for the last one week, not all of them can be put into words----they were just too beautiful to be described here…I guess this is my first time handling a real wedding though Angah is my second sibs, Along had hers in such a simple ceremony before flying to UK so I guess this wedding is like a payback time for our family…huhu..

The preparation..

They were 9 trays sent as gifts to the bride…I was with Angah n K.Rina when they were buying the stuff n I was also the one who decorated them as Ola was having her exam at that time..but I just made them simple n most things like shoes n silk clothes are put in simply decorated boxes. But looking on the gifts really made me think of marrying somebody rite now..they were damn gr8!!

The evening when the ‘Akad’ was held...6th September 03

We reached Tangkak, Johor few minutes after Asar n the ceremony went smoothly..the Kadi made Angah repeated his akad once..huhu..i was the camerawoman of the evening as Abg. Noi or Pak Lang ( the evry-occasion cameramen) weren’t there. I was stunned by the perfection of the ceremony, the Johorians really have their own style of this akad nikah things..they made the bride state her promises to be loyal to her groom n the same goes the other way round, they made them to ask for forgiveness n restu from their parents (this was the part when most ppl crying n sobbing real loud..huhu) n they asked Angah to perform sujud syukur after the akad was safe. It took quite some times for all that…n that night the ‘upacara berinai’ was held but we didn’t stay for it (except for Angah n his friend) as tomorrow we have to get back there…tired tired tired….

The day after that…Upacara Bersanding..7th September 03

We started to move from Bangi at 9+ a.m with my relatives mostly from Abah’s side being there..the convoy stopped for a while at Mak’s hometown, Kg. Belimbing Dalam to pick up some relatives..we reached Tangkak in the afternoon..the bersanding went on with the other 2 couples—K.Rina’s eldest sister’s n her brother’s (they all had been married with their couples mo or less like 1 months before)..wut an experience!

The GRAND FINALE..the ceremony on groom’s side..14th September 03

This was the moment that I waited for so long..huhuhu..it was held in a big dining hall in PERMATA (hey I live there!) n that was the purpose we didn’t have that busy schedule as all things are handled by the caterer..most relatives from Mak’s side had an overnight at our hse n they also help to prepare the things that weren’t settled yet..when the time came, I guess it was the most beautiful moments in my life (for the time being la hehe)..everything was purely purrfect to me (as if I was the bride le plak, but it’s the truth man!), the pelamin, the guests, the emcee (Along made a gr8 job as one!), the timing of the ceremony....everything……(no words to described them)…we were all (my family n most of my relatives) dressed up in blue-the theme colour n even the roses at the pelamin were blue roses…pelamin was decorated by Mak’s relative (mak found out bout him when attending other relative’s wedding…it was damn beautiful..i heard praises..praises..praises..)..the beriyani was damn delicious too!

My friends who attended the wedding..

Pah, Mira, Asilah n her sister, Chubby stayed overnight n helped me with the packaging of the sweets..thanks..they helped me providing the eggs to the guests too..thanks guys…luv ya all…

Azie..my fav. friend who came all d way from UTM, Skudai (she took a midnite bus...aku terharu sgt pasal ni) n arrived at my hse in the morning of the wedding day…n she was the one who was continuously giving away eggs n sweets to the guests n stay at the eggs counter till she fell asleep bcoz of the boredom..(weih aku tak dera ko tau..hehe..malu sgt nak bersosial mana taknye..)..this was her second time coming to my hse like that..last time she came before I flied to Dublin..this time I guess her intention was the same as last ones but added with the wedding..thanks a lot fren..i owe u a lot..

So the wedding was over..my excitements have been replaced by the feelings of sadness n glooms..i’m going back to Dublin on this 21st sept…think I’m not so ready for that..

Special dedication…to WAN KHAIRUDDIN WAN MONTIL, my beloved brother and ZAMZARINA KHALID, my new family member, may u have real happy lives together n I hope u’ll all cherish this bond till the end of the world…I love u all so much..

I’ll post up the pictures when I’m capable in doing so..huhu..too lazy to learn!