Thursday, August 28, 2003

long enough?

a lot of things happened recently, since my last post..where do i start huh?

+ while writing this blog, i'm actually chatting with my rommates in Dublin, Yanie and Arnee (they are still in malaysia at the moment but they're going back earlier than i am) while searching for the new place that we r going to move in..we've searched thru daft.ie n found some suitable places BUT the problem is that no one is going to view the house for us!!!!!damn it...felt like flying to Dublin rite now to go viewing the places...tensen tahap dewa dewi dah ni...hope all our efforts being paid off by finding the BEST place to stay...amen

+ last 3 days i went out to buy some books and to make white coat at a place near to hkl..due to the heavy traffic (a real heavy one!!) i dropped myself out (hehe) at ukm, kl n spent the night there at Pah's room (considered my room already..jgn mare)..d next day after Pah finishes her exam we went to see the tailor but on my way there i tripped n nearly fell..at that time i've already felt something wrong at my right foot but i ignored the feeling as we were rushing to the place (plus to cover my shame to the few boys nearby that saw me..malu siut)..

after finished my business with the tailor i took a cab n met Nisa (my high school friend who's studying in Columbus, a blogger too!) at klcc...we had lunch there and only after that suddenly i felt the greatest pain at my right foot that made me waddled (macam common peroneal nerve injury le pulak) all the way to the prayer room..quite a long time since i didn't experienced this kinda pain..as i couldn't take the pain anymore, i decided to go to Mont Kiara Medical Centre with a few hesitations at the beginning but only to find that my insurance is covered there..a big thanks to Nisa for accompanying me there! the doctor was worried if i broke any of my foot bones (talus bones maybe) but after gone thru x-ray it was sured that no fracture found!i think i just had my tendons twisted or wut (wut else?they didn't put any dye to x-ray my muscles so that's my best diagnosis laa)...

the best part was, the doctor did gave me some painkillers for the pain n i took one on my way to go back to ukm, kl..n i never know that i'm allergic to THAT spesific drug---i had mixed oedema (those who didn't know, that one is a swelling due to accumulation of fluid) at my face, particularly my right eyes n i started to sneeze and i think i can feel my airway constricted at that time...as i experienced this one b4 so i just relaxed myself up n called Mak for my medication..i safely returned home after Maghrib prayer and got some rest till the next day...one challenge after another..will they ever stop????

+ n finally..today i went out to make an appointment for my interviews for psyc project at one private hospital in sek.17 shah alam..went there with Shikin (another pal in Dublin) and her mom..we searched for the hospital like crazy ppl in a car (seriously!!) and lastly only to find that the hospital just changed its name with its new paints..from Geriatrik Hospital to ColumbiaAsia Nursing and Rehab. Centre...sabojekla..but thanks to Nisa and Shera for the infos..we managed to meet one doctor and he settled the things with us, saying that he'd call us back in the afternoon for the appoinment..when the time came, i got a phonecall from one man saying his name was en.kamal n he spoke a real fluent malay..after a while i realized that he was the doctor i spoke to at the hospital..suddenly i felt so ashamed coz i've been speaking english with him at the hospital without even knowing that he might be malay or a person who speaks a real good malay (might be bcoz he's more to indian look kot...silly me!)...malu la jugak..macamla belagak terer..wondering wut he might be thinking of me...hmmm...

ooopsss think i wrote too long for this one..maklumla lamer dah tinggal...so i'll get back here later okey...may today brings all the happiness to me......

Saturday, August 23, 2003

the visit of my life..

last friday i went to see the dentist in bandar baru bangi, accompanied by my parents after Abah finished his friday prayer. i have a big, i mean a reallly biig hole in my 2nd molar teeth, got this one when i was still in dublin (gigi terpatah sikit/serpih and there's a big hole left) and also my-long-before-identified caries at my insicor teeth..damn it how did i got that one!!memalukan sungguh!!

the doctor (Dr Sham if i'm not mistaken) just got back from his outing when i went inside. i didn't noticed his looks as he was already masked when he approached me. n so the treatment went on...while he was checking my teeth, he did praised me for my clean teeth, saying that i have a correct technique/skill of brushing my teeth (all thanks to Suhana, my good pal in KC who's currently doing dentistry in UKM KL). but the probem with me was that i didn't floss my teeth often enuff that plaque built up within the teeth=caries!

i'm not going to tell ya evrybit of things that went on on that day. but i'd like to share with you the things that crossed my minds while having and also after the treatment. firstly, i went to a private clinic and my first benefit was that i didn't have to wait for any second to get my treatment, secondly the doctor n the nurses there were soo nice to me n they're all very friendly (too friendly i'd say, asking me questions while my mouth opened wide enuff that i can put my fist in it--how can i answer them?) and i also got the best explaination ever of wut's going on inside my mouth-i guess a real idiot also could have understood clearly wut he was saying!n all these things came with a PRICE---the bill that was nearly reaching rm200...it got me into thinking---do evry good things in the world really have that high price??

as the world moves on, evryday more people get sick..n more technologies have been implemented in the medical world to ease the treatment process, and of course the impact is the cost of the treatment keeps increasing as the technology grows! well of course u can always go to the general/gov. hospitals but u surely get the best quality of treatments at the private ones, believe me as i've experienced this. i'm lucky to have my dad's insurance to cover my medical treatments n mum'm too as a government server (insya Allah i'll have my children covered up in their times too), but think of those who didn't have all these things. three/four days stay in HUKM would cost u nearly rm600+ or even more. sad huh? if only i can do sumthing to help those the needy ones (maybe i'll reconsider my ambition to serve in Mercy on any volunteering society huhu)

this thing crossed my minds too : insya Allah when i'm a doctor someday my children/my family won't have any problem in having their medical treatment, BUT how bout their (n mine) dental treatment????

possible solution : do i have to find a dentist husband for this????hahaha.. :p

Thursday, August 21, 2003

gloomy day?

today ended up badly..i'm not in the mood of telling it..just felt a lil light on the head after letting myself go on this one...BAD BAD BAD GURL!!!!sometimes i dun really know whether i'm doing the rite/wrong thing..for me, according to my still-working brain, i was doing the rite thing, but to look from the etiquette side of view, it will never be a rite thing!!!!!damn it i felt like crying but suddenly i realized i've to be strong on this one, i really have to!!i'm not the ol' person they knew b4..luckily i had somebody to back me up from behind (that might be a sign for me that i was right at the first place!i guess my INTENTION was rite but i took my wrong ACTION to prove it...damn it!!!!!!hate myself for that one)..

REJAB are coming again and i was lucky to have one friend to make me notice of this month of blesses (thanks!)..but i regret it that i still not fully using my times, taking the month for granted, in fact this year's rejab (or any month b4) is the most pathetic one for me, not like before like in high school where i usually tried to fast as many days as i could, filling my times making myself closer to Him..but not this year..not in this particular year..dear God forgive me for wut i am...

''oh Tuhan syahdu nian maya-Mu ini namun syahdu lagi cinta-Mu.."

---searching for my soul...

Wednesday, August 20, 2003

wasting my precious times..

i just can't believe it that i managed to finished a nearly 700 pages novel in a day!i borrowed it from Asie during my visit to her place during UKM's Pesta Konvo the other day n i only started reading it by today in the evening..it was like i was being hypnotized by it n i kept holding the book even while eating my dinner..well i would say that was just plain me..i was being myself-an obsessive person..haha do i really am?

it's like when i put my hands on something, i'd go 100% for it n i'll only satisfy myself after finish doing it..some ppl back then in school/in the place i study know always told me (or they were just being sarcastic, i'm not so sure!) that i'm a 'studyholic' kind of person---i stay at the library too much---"alaa shu tu kat mane lagi kalau bukan rumah kedua dia (library)"---n so the story goes..but back here in malaysia, just ask my parents-they'd proudly define me as the person who has all the times in the world...a person who treasures her free times by---->simply doing nothing at all!!huhu i reall am!(they might see me doing nothing after they got back from work but God knows who did the chores before they do...)

so i guess i am an obsessive kinda person..when it's time to study, i'll be studying like i'm applying for Harvard Medical School (not in a million chance!) and when it comes to holidays, well u know wut i'll be doing!!for me, i can't mix things at a same time..n i salute for them u marry while still studying, i really am! (K.Siti Hajar n Amar!!apa kabar agaknye diorang kat Cork tu...K.Siti, just can't wait to see your big belly!!)..as i always say to my friends esp to Pah, "aku kalau kawin time2 belajar ni ade 2 je perkara yg bakal jadik...sama ada aku tak lulus sebab bagi laki aku makan, or laki aku tak makan sebab nak tgk aku lulus.."..sounds vulgar isn't it..but it's the bitter truth i tell ya!!for me it's just not sounds right to be doing the two opposite things at the same time...

but as a human being i know that all these things are in His hands..so i'll just play my best role as His 'hamba yang hina' and let Him does his job..i won't blame Him if it's really happen to me one day, who knows might be one of His tests on me...

i'm counting days to go back home..i guess my obsession on my holidays already fades away--sometimes too much holidays doesn't always seems good, moreover i'm not doing the things i'm supposed to do in this break..(there?i'm supposed to be studying for my first professional exam during my holidays but i just can't!!holiday is holiday laaa)..i have a lot of things to be settled---psyc project, angah's wed preparation, STUDY!!, buying stuff for my new home n for myself n more dizzy stuffs..first thing's first...DO YOUR PSYC PROJECT SHOE!!!!!!!!

today my Greek-Crush crossed my minds!!happy for the thot!

Sunday, August 17, 2003

the greatest gift of all..

tonite i watched "gatacca" (at last! i'm biting the dust out of it..guess evryone has watched it b4 me)..wut a great movie!i sat still in front of the tv from the very beginning till end.

today i went to my senior's wedding! here goes a special wish to them, ZAKIAH AMIR + DR FAIZAL, may u have a wonderful life together under His blessings! they are tooo good to be true, they really do! after the wedding Yanie (my rommate in Dublin) and i went out loafing around, after withdrawing some money from citibank (n stunned by the technology inside!terase jakun giler time tu), she accompanied me to PC n today i finally bought my new BABY mobile phone that i dreamt long time b4..i wasn't sure buying it even when i finished paying it but while stepping out of the place i finally decided to leave evrything to Him n tawakkal..i've done my part n i hope He'll protect me in any way..please do dear God!i felt good after a while..

n yesterday was THE DAY for me..i started the day by following Angah n K.Rina (my sister-in-law to-be) to buy stuff for the wedding gifts..apparently Angah appreciated my comments on evry things he wanted to buy and asked me for my comments before buying anything, n that was a lil bit unusual of him to treat me in that way huhu but wut the heck! i envied them so much n in an instant i felt like marrying somebody at that moment huhu but deep down i know marriage is not a thing u can simply mess around with, it includes great responsibilities!do u have wut it takes shu??not now lah..one day maybe.. :P

after buying the stuff i went to UKM Bangi to meet my friends..i had a real great moments there, meeting friends that i never get to see since i left Kolej Chermai (KC) years ago..i noticed changes in them - Che Mat is now a person who talks quite a lot with his educated looks in specs, Zubaidi isn't the one shy guy anymore (still can't believe it he was the person on stage doing the theatre last year!!), but some remained the same ol' person - Pok Cik still holding to his good sense of humour (lawak gile), Nomad still have the big laugh (according to Amali la!), not to forget my females friends - Syida Ustazah being the same alim person, miss her a lot! Ira did lose some weights (can be seen clearly!) but still remains the same ol' Ira with guys chasing her around, Chubby has found her new crush (it's not uncommon!!) but end up like being expected (hey maybe it's not the end yet!) n lots more ppl that i never can get to describe them here..i really miss them a lot n i miss those times in KC..

my NANA, RAM, EZA, REEN, PAH, SUHANA, ASIE, DILA, JA, AKIH..u are the ones that light up my life..i dunno wut would my life be w/out u guys in it..i luv u all n really miss the times we spent together..may we be sisters forever..thru rains n shines..

Friday, August 15, 2003

slow-to-fast day...

a'kum..

i woke up quite late today (inilah padahnye stay up smpi pagi!) n minutes after that i was quite 'gelabah' when i heard Abah's engine outside..giler! Abah went to the hospital as he had infections in his ears n apparently he had a day off. Luckily i had the chance to tidy up some messes on the table n make things look 'touched'! Abah complaint of being so hungry (nearly hypoglycaemia!) at that moment n lucky me *again as there were still some sambal n boiled eggs for the nasi lemak that were cooked by Mak in the morning on the table (dunno wut would happen if they were not there because i found out there was nothing in the freezer that can be cooked at that moment)...pheW!

afternoon times went smoothly but in a very slow pace! i called Along n asked her if she's free to accompany me to midvalley but she was in the hospital at that moment having follow-up treatment for her illness (y is evryone seemed to be sick at this time?)..but she promised to go out with me after the treatment ends, that would only be after 4 o clock in the evening. so i spent my afternoon doing some chores while watching tv- spesific: channel 17 = repeated episodes of Akademi Fantasia..damn i'm so glued to this programme..i never felt bored no matter how many times i watched it. this is wut they call the success of the Jews to have the Muslims spending their times n money on MUSIC!(dah tau buat jugak...man i'm just an ordinary human who's early life has been greatly influenced by music..it might takes some times to make me throw away my bad influences)..

We (Abah, Mak, Along, Akib n i) decided to go to ioi mall puchong. Mak n Abah were included in the plan as Along was too lazy to send me home after finishes shopping (the plan was actually i spent the night in her place but last minute cancellation due to some problems). plus the fact that Mak also wanted to buy some stuff for herself. so we went there n did some shopping at jusco. as planned, i bought a pair of light brown shoes-a real comfy ones! + SALE!! and a pink blouse that i like soo much (this one Mak belanje rm20 but the rest--support sindri laaa). dunno why lately i'm kinda into pink stuff..my frens from high school would be screaming to know this!!haha it is just not me at all!!Mak liked this one handbag (Alain Delon's) and Along tapped me from behind and gave me the 'look' on her face that i knew the meaning sooo much!i gave her the money and she 'pretended' that she bought it for Mak (ikutkan hati nak pecah jek rahsia)..she promised to pay me back later when her gaji masuk..HOPEFULLY!!

the plan was to have dinner in A&W or Mc D but it was kinda late so Along suggested this one place in puchong that has a real good roti canai. before leaving i made that 'look on my face' and successfully provoked Mak to gimme some money to buy food from kenny rogers (i craved for this one since i got back home!!)..yeehuu..Akib got a ride on the merry-go-round (after seriously being annoying to all of us!) and he was amazingly cute on the horse ride! he really has grown up so fast! dah macam budak dajah satu badan yg semangat tuuu..

so we went to the place..haha i could see the look on Mak's face when she found out that the restaurant was owned by India-Muslim ppl--mamak style la..it was just plain Mak- she never eats outside without knowing the place well, moreover if the owner is not Malay or what-she's not being racism but being carefull i would say..she always questions bout the cleanliness of the food/place, the source of the meat esp the ones u have to slaughter, n of course the way ppl cook it..that's y we seldomly eat outside, evrything will be a home-made ones except in special occasions eg celebrating s'thing. boring jugak kadang2 tu!!KFC is never in her list and we always end up eating in mc d or AnW as those are the places that have fish fillet. to look on the brighter side, it's actually great the way she's particular on wut's going into her stomach but the dark thing is none of her child ever follow her steps..huhu.."mak ni outdated laaa" i say, but in my heart i'm always proud of her attitude on this one. yep it's true that we are wut we eat, n that's y none of us have the attitude like Mak's..hopefully one day i'll be like her..

it is already mornin..tomorrow's gonna be a long day for me!

"Ya Allah aku bersyukur atas nikmat Islam yang Kau kurniakan..amin"

Thursday, August 14, 2003

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assalamualaikum w.b.t..

alhamdulillah it only costs me a few mins to set up this whole thing..wut do i say in my introduction essay huh??let's first put some hopes in it!!

1. i'm hoping that i can be a better me after having the thing to channel my ideas, thots, dreams that i never get to tell anyone before..

2. hope i can share with anyone out there, my experiences of the day-who knows someday they might get the benefits out of them..

3. i truely hope that i can improve my language out of this--pardon me if i make any mistakes, i'm learnin!

so much to say but there's no word to represent em..i actually have the hunch to be-a-blogger after reading my friends' ones...thot of how nice it is being able to express ur feelings w/out being critisized or kutuk'ed by ppl around u..it's not like i always experienced that but i just think that i express myself better in writings..(some ppl do!)..when i was a lil girl i used to write diaries n journals--with my prime objective was to improve my language, but sadly most of them end up being read by my big sis and at the end of the day (when the words are spread) i end up being their laughingstock and it was like forever to have them to erase the things from their minds!!haha wut's more funnier than reading a lil girl's feelings towards life around her--monkey love, hatred towards siblings, the my-parents-adopted-me thots and all silly things a child have in her life (plus in my broken english style!!)..but seriously i never took heart out of that..(i read theirs too!! ^_^ )..that are the things that put colors in ur life rite?hmm kinda miss my elder sis now- OLA..

it's already early morning..have to get some sleeps...*don't let the bed bug bite!- teringat Pah's BED BUG..yikes...