my best

Dear Girls,

I haven't been so happy in my life for as long as I could remember it (most of the good memories have been repressed by the ugly life of a junior doctor). Thanks to you girls, I have something to smile again now come to think about. For such a short meeting, I realized though we haven't met for a long time, we never really have lost the closeness. I knew instantly that I can just blurt out my life stories irrelevantly believing you'd be the troops I can always count on.

Thank you for making the afternoon such a memorable one, thanks for the text messages and phone calls. Love you girls to bits.

*without Shawn & Kuzhai

OK, special thanks to

1. Tok kadi for the special charity photoshoot, for allowing us to violate your copyright, and mostly thanks for being the instant step up mock partner one can ever get.

2. Iza for making me believing in such a controversial statement - sape2 pun mampu buat telepathy, kalau cukup tenaga batin.. I came to Dublin with 2 large packets of Pearl Cafe..ha ha..

3. Kakak baik hati for sending me off to KLIA.

Sayonara. Until we meet again.


I will be back to the mortifying life of a junior doctor tomorrow. I'm dreading every single thought of it, urghh..

photos galore: Syawal 1428H

bunga api malam raya

K.Rina, Naqib, Ayep

empty arwah nenek's house filled in again on hari raya

Adik & Naqib playing macho

rumah puan sambal udang

my signature pineapple products

old granny's stairs

big sis on kenduri

cousins, in-laws, sisters

finally anyam ketupat after long years of ketupat adabi

we call this familial resemblance

rainy raya day

that was just Naqib playing retarded

Aya et moi - Selamat Hari Raya all!

raya this year

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri & Maaf Zahir Batin.

This year's raya celebration has been, by far, the best one I've ever had. 5 years is indeed a very long time. After 2 days spending raya in kampung, I realized how much I've missed being away from home all these while; too much.

Raya celebration brings a whole lot of new perspectives when it occurs at the right place.

1) Kuah kacang tasted super delicious with belimbing buluh added in it, and having the chance to taste the original sambal udang again after such a looooong time is just tears-dropping.

2) It's amazing how one can stand the hot weather, even in the old granny's house with zinc roof - although it felt like being in a green house honestly.

3) Waking up to a morning served with simply the best in the world cekodok ikan bilis and rendang tok is totally something to die for (and waking up again for the same).

4) People really grow. At one point you've lost count and trace of who's who.

5) It's like a search for the best kuih raya award each time. After going through few elimination rounds, I've finally found the most perfect, the one that stood on its own, simply the best, kuih mazolla one can ever get. Hehe..

6) "Traap..traap..traap.." says the rain on the tin roof.

7) Here getting ill is a total bliss. Other than having to bear the sickness, there shall be overflowing of love.

8) It's funny how the same stairs the whole lot of us used to sit on, now can only fill less than half the number.

9) Raya at kampung is so amazing; you wouldn't mind going raya around in selipar jepun not to stained proper shoes from mud poodles, and sacrificing the silk baju kurung sleeves reaching out for original rendang ayam kampung.

On another note, for years and years I haven't been receiving duit raya, by the time I realized about it, I am now giving one. It's just amazing how a simple blue note can bring a lot of joy to the little ones receiving them, when you spent hundreds and hundreds of them on a single use on make-ups that you'd barely use. How odd.

Nonetheless, salam aidilfitri to all..

pulanglah di hari raya..

In tally with the climate, here's to emphasize the sappy raya mood evenmore.

I spent the weekend contemplating, and something came up short after. I realized I should give myself a chance this time. It looks brighter on the other end. (Praying hard). I know it's about time to start dreaming again.

Nonetheless, Eid Mubarak to my dear readers, friends, everyone. I sincerely ask forgiveness for all my wrongdoings throughout the years.

Hope you have a wonderful Eid celebration!

See you at home!! *smiling from ear to ear*

stitching bits and bobs

OK listening to lagu raya early in the morning is a baaadd idea..

One day on the way home on the radio it played the dream interpretations by some dream reader guy. I thought, how ridiculous was that. One lady was asking the guy to interpret her dream of catching her partner sleeping with her friend. What the..

Then I realized, I haven't had any dreams in my sleep for a long time. I mean, never. They just disappeared. I should start dreaming again. Good dreams now. Nightmare season has passed (exam season).

At present most of our patients are in needing of surgical consults. One guy admitted with chest pain after a fall. Just when we're about to discharge him we found out that his aortic aneurysm has been expanding. A lady with recurrent falls and weakness in her legs had her MRI showing severe cervical canal stenosis. The young cystic fibrosis patient with worsening radiculopathic symptoms had a foramen magnum decompression surgery, and scheduled for a permanent surgical stitch removal on his rectum next. Emm..

Having to deal with those, I realized that it is almost IMPOSSIBLE to comprehend and deal with most surgeons. If you can bear the yelling then you're OK. They acted like they're the BUSIEST and most IMPORTANT person in the whole wide world. I'm not generalizing, but sometimes you get frustrated and fed up with some that you can't help it but to generalize.

I watched this going home after a bad day experiencing surgeons. Definitely made my evening. Of note, here there's no rivals between interns. We love each other so much.



We have come to the final nights of the holy month. Shamefully this year has been the worst record of my scale of amal. I don't know I'd pass to even celebrate eid. Shame on me..

jalan terus

My heart aches as I read this on my mobile, over and over again.

I can safely say that it's been an honour to work with a kind, trustworthy & sincere person such as yourself. It's been immense! You'll make a fantastic paediatrician.

I haven't been in my best state this week. There's a major switchover of the team members - I'm still here. Most people (but not the boss) suggested that I should go home at noon today. Smiling back, no thanks. Who's left to deal with the CT scan, endoscopy, consult requests? Though my stomach was weak and queasy, the face almost blown off from sneezing, I embraced the day. Blame the norovirus outbreak. Alas, the show must go on..

I'm patiently waiting for next week. It seems so far away. (I need to get away from these bollocks immediately, I'd die if I don't)