Wednesday, August 30, 2006

freedom interpreted..(as eating and not colonized by Salmonella sp.)

What can I say, with this twisted mind like mine I can never make a promise to anyone on anything especially when it comes to my writings. I am all still very excited about the reunion with the girls but I just can't begin to write anything on that. Maybe you can browse through the girls' page at the right corner of this very dusty weblog to get to know the whole story of it.

Owh guess I'm at the perfect time to wish all Malaysians a very Happy 49th Independence Day. Back in school we would've spent the Merdeka night doing countdown on our very own Dataran Puteri while watching the lights and firecrackers from the festival at the twin tower from far. And that's after a good round of lectures from the seniors, which need not to be on the spirit of nationalism or dying for your country but merely on releasing what grudge they've been holding on you. Heck, school days~

Nonetheless, Malaysians, let's not take this freedom we have for granted and always reach out for the needy ones. Having the chances to go abroad and travelled to remote places like Acheh and Cambodia, I've seen poverty to its max. U can't imagine people living their lives in lackness and restrictions that we, Malaysians, would have readied in front of us in an instance. Come morning we open our eyes and enter our ensuite bathroom for a hot bath and later have a good cup of hot coffee, while people in Cambodia struggles to collect clean water from the river or well which seasonally ruined by the great floods they have each year. I still remember trying to avoid drinking iced drinks at the stalls when we were in Cambodia to avoid getting diarrhoea, but later succumbed to the scorching sun and ignored the gore stories of the uncleaned water and drank eventually. Guess what we've succumbed ourselves into next? The old friend diarrhoea! Hail to the toilets that saved our days..

My point is, these people have been living in conditions where lackness has became predominant that they've somehow developed immunity to it made evidence by their very strong stomachs whilst we, Malaysians, had one sip of their considered-as-luxurious drinking water and suffered loose stools for days and days. Believe me some of my fellow relief mates are still having their remnants of diarrhoea. Let's just hope that these salmonella sp. didn't find sanctuary in our guts and settle down instead.

I may end this with a picture I took in Cambodia. Believe me I was stunned by the view I saw of this kid making his way in a small basin he made as his boat. He's basically what Indonesians would call "anak-anak picisan", the ones that beg for money on the streets for their living. But instead, some kids of Cambodia chooses water as another means of begging. U can imagine this small fella would just tumble his basin and fell into the huge lake without anyone's noticed. Well if u do noticed would u risk your life saving him in that middle of huge lake?



I hate to compare the luxuries that my little nephews and niece are having at their very young age as to what these kids have, but I am living in a very real world that needs real intrepretations on the value of life, though it may hurt to evaluate, guess that's the price I have to pay to let the truth be spoken..

Thursday, August 17, 2006

vivre et laisser vivre

I can't begin to explain how I desperately want this holidays to never come to an end. I love being at home. I love it when mum wakes me up for fajr, I love the sweet smell of coffee early in the morning, I love to go back to bed to hear mum's nagging over and over again till it's midday, I love it when abah asks me for any laundry to be done, I love it when I argue with mum over channels on telly, I love it when I win, I love it when we call for peace on one Malay drama, I love it when the 2 little nephews and niece came, I love it when I can be the auntie they'll always have, I love being the little sister that heeds the rules of the needy one. I guess I just love being loved.

I know I'm spoiling myself for what I won't have for another term. And I don't mind that. Guess I'm an opportunist, big time.

I can't deny the fact that the holidays've been, by far, the craziest amongst the previous three. Something is in the water I must say. Other than the Israeli-Palestine-Lebanon crisis, Pak Lah vs Tun M, Dato' K & Siti Nur, the hazy KL, the legendary KJ; all of which my grandchildren or great grandchildren will ask for details come one day. My life is a bit like a song now. Or at least I wish it is. It makes me go la~la all day long. I guess I've entered the phase in life where I put hopes in the future. And it is best described in songs. Am not that old though, or I maybe am. Mentally. I need to get a grip, damnit!

Let me live my moments for just couple of weeks more. I won't ask for anything better than this once I'm back on solitude.



Friday, August 11, 2006

tired yet contented

People, friends.


I'm already back in Bangi for almost a week. How was Cambodia you must ask? To be honest I can't really answer that now. Stay tuned for the coming weeks/months (or perhaps years) for the answers. Why, u you ask again. Well, firstly, I've started my clinical elective in HUKM a day after I arrived KL. So tiredness prolonged. But I don't really mind that, it's what I've been planning to do since before anyway. Though it hasn't been too fruitful like what I've imagined it would be. U know sometimes I can be a bit too ambitious don't u. I don't mind the dissappointment now, maybe it'll come to me later. I'm just too tired to think about it.

I have a new hobby now. I think with time it'll turn into a huge passion for me. U know how passionate I can be if I'm into things.

And people, it has came to my mind that this will be the last summer holidays for me as a medical student. Next year if things work as planned (God's willing) you can find me blowing my head off working at wee hours in one of the nearest hospitals, or you can't if I decided to prolonged my stay in Dublin for extra money and extra stress in my life. Still deciding am I?

A little something from Cambodia, certainly one of my favourites. Enjoy.