Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin

It's the anticipation of it. Imagining oneself in the arms of the loved ones, the warmth of the long subdued friendships, laughters and joy.

I am fretting counting every seconds gone.

Home, here I come!

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Maaf Zahir & Batin

Dengan ingatan tulus ikhlas.

round two

OK we're already in the second half of the month. A good time to take a step back and do a bit of post-mortem of the first half. Not looking too good for me. Haish..

Work has been extremely busy. Was constantly on my feet all day, if only they can talk you'll hear them scream. It's the start of the season, like the boss said - Welcome to the Lungs Season. All of the asthmatics, pneumonias, bronchiolitis and whatsnot. All of the happy wheezers suddenly become unhappy. Didn't sleep a wink last on-call and was still in A&E and wards the next day till 6PM. I collapsed at home and slept straight from 6.30PM till 4.30AM. Missed everything in between. Welcome to the real deal.

A good friend Shahirah reminded us to be grateful of what we have. I remembered the eye-opening experience we had in Cambodia. One of them was on arrival in Siem Reap at the bus station. Upon meeting our guide person, there were these kids rushing to our van with their hands reaching out and pointing our food containers. Nyam - they said, which means food in Khmer. We were startled at first, confused at same, then realizing there were no danger we gave them our canned sardines, left overs from the stay in Phnom Penh. They were simply delighted, walking away cheerfully as if they've gotten the biggest catch of the day.

I should start going back to these places. Too much luxury can cloud the conscience. If you see my fridge you'll die. Leftovers and more leftovers. Orang lain malnutrisi sebab tak cukup makan.

Kids make you do the darndest things (like becoming a Paediatrician..)

J asked me last week, "So 2 months in Paeds, what do you think so far?"

Smiled. Paeds is for me, absolutely. It's a busy job definitely; you have to be extra vigilant, super obsessive and a lot tedious, it is physically and mentally draining. But again, it's Paeds, nothing can top the smiles the little kiddies give you after they're feeling better when not long before that they were in ICU on a ventilator machine. Yes it's the wonderful world of this little humans with their superb healing power and forgiveness. I poked needles for the Nth times on this poor baby for a very difficult IV cannulation but still the next day received the sweetest smile from her. How forgiving!

I met this shy 6 year old boy in A&E with fever and diarrhea. After a while he started asking me, "Why do you wear that on your head?" pointing to my scarf. I said, "Because it's fun!" (which totally doesn't make sense I know). Not satisfied with my answer he asked again. "But why? Why do you have to wear that?" I then said, whispering, "Don't tell anyone, but I actually shaved my head this morning that's why I have to wear this to cover up!!" He started laughing so hard. Hihi.

Now imagine saying that to a 40 year old man with fever and diarrhea. Haha. Ain't paeds a lot more fun to do?

As for now, I've been missing my angels at home especially Yaya. She has transformed into this girly grown up and called herself Iman instead. I'm counting days to meet her, can't wait! (sampai mimpi meracau racau)

Always smiling..at home in Bangi

Cubaan mengacau Atok berkebun

Iman yang beriman (amin)

Sis with Naqib, Iman & Ariff

I almost forgot, welcome to the world Baby Hariz and congratulations to Angah & Kak Rina. I heard Ayep is acting up being this big brother at the same time being jealous of the diversion of attentions. Hehe. Ah can't wait for home..

Of bubur jagung

My friends in the Radiology Dept greeted Happy Ramadhan to me even before the month started. This is, by far, the friendliest Radiology Dept I've ever worked in. They said they love my smiles in the middle of their stormy day. How flattering.



Things I miss most in Ramadhan at home is the desserts. The first day I craved for bubur jagung. There I was sipping every spoon of it. Then yesterday I wanted something savoury. The problem was my bubur jagung from the first day is still in the fridge. And looks like I'd be sipping it till the week ends. I miss student days when there were 5 mouths to be fed in the house instead of just your own's. I'm not doing too good being a loner..