makjun sangkut

Hari-hari kerja kerja kerja.

Another Monday, this time a working Monday too.



Enjoy.

Monday musing

K.Anis has tagged me on the 5 commandments concerning love and partnership. I attempted them all, but thought they might be a tad bit too discreet for public viewing lest they could be misinterpreted. I agree, I have come to the age when other friends are settling with 3 kids and a house plus bibik and a big Sunday car (macam tipu sikit). Every conversation with Mak these days she never failed to bring this matter up, whilst I tried my best steering her to what's happening to the weather or Iman's new cat or the current political sublime at home.

I know, I am not getting any younger. (I thought I am though, a she-Benjamin Button, prettier by each day. Heh perasan). I have followed my heart and fate more than twice when I said no to men, I kept getting nightmares that karma will follow. I fear that I'll be jinxed for what I did. But love cannot be forced. It just, can't.

Anyhoo.

If one thing from the questionnaires I should emphasize in men is their relationship with God. One who takes the simple 5 times prayers alight is failing the criterias of a good Muslim husband material. When one cannot lead oneself to be fearful of God, how he's going to lead others for same is questionable. Kalau solat ibarat tiang mendukung atap, tanpa tiang robohlah rumah.

Anyhooooooo (lagi panjang).

Monday was spent lazing at home, doing chores, exercise 10 minit (pemalas!), talking to Mak, catching up on the soaps and watching this. I thought I was going to walk to Tesco to get some milk but the after effect of the movie is too overwhelming I had to stay in. I am a hopeless romantic allrite. Benci!

Back to work tomorrow..

take a breather

A&E was mad yesterday. 3 kids needed resuscitations, another 2 had to be transferred to Dublin (I had to go with one of them in an ambulance). All happened on the day I was on single shift in A&E. No registrar. I was scared shit, but as usual, nobody knew that. Thanks to the disguised face. They all thought I was some sorta hero-who-calmly-and-single-handedly-sort-everything-out. Ye wish!

Returned to Dublin later than planned, I had the best late night kuey teow kung foo with good companies. Thanks y'all. Lame tak borak..Then I slept soundly with the aid of 2 paracetamols. (Speaking of doctors who self-medicate for no reasons)

This morning, I was drooling milk from the cereal over breakfast when watching this on TV. Darn, this is when cosmesis, reconstruction surgery, natural beauty, valoptuousity and single ladies jumble up in one bowl and don't make anymore sense whatsoever. (Terus pack gym bag dan pergi mendaftar sebagai ahli di gym berdekatan).

Finally, the long awaited weekend has arrived! Gumbiraaa..

Bulan

The moon closed today in perfection.

On a clear sky tonight, I thought they've paved the motorway with new lights. It was jolly bright.

As I looked far up, there he was, smiling in fullness. I swear nothing has came across to be brighter than this.

Begitulah pungguk rindukan bulan.

Subhanallah.

skipping the Monday blues

Breakfast/lunch was - poached egg with brown bread and butter crushed with garlic and parsley. Kicap manis is a must. A cup of hazelnut flavoured cappuccino as an eye-opener. How the coffee got a bit complicated for home level is a different story altogether.




I got dehydrated so badly from not drinking water enough. As a consequence the upper lip cracked so badly it sore so much too. Feels like Angelina Jolie wannabe who failed a lip surgical enhancement with a horrendous pulsating pout. I wasn't imagining things when I thought the parents of the patients were looking at my lips in disgrace when I was trying to explain what's wrong with their child in A&E.

A colleague said this when he saw me applying Vaseline to the poor lip.

"So we have to tell Mr Wan to take a better care of you then."

"You mean, my dad?"

"No I mean Mr Wan."

"Yes there's only 3 Mr Wans - my dad and my 2 brothers. Who did you mean?"

Dia sengih kerang busuk.

snow-ed in the city

It's been a week of intermittent sub-zero temperatures and white coating lands. The journey to work is more challenging and time consuming due to

1. de-icing the conventional way - pour water and watchful wait. Takes at least 15 minutes.
2. uneven road surface with patches of black ices
3. it became messy when the snow and ice started melting
4. a moron started harassing me from behind when I slowed down because of the small country roads. He was an inch close to hit me from behind when his brake was slow to work due to the ices. A loud screech and his face went pale. Jackass.
5. the water finished and I didn't know how to open the car bonet. So left with a dirty windscreen for a week. Mak said it's a about time I need a man in my life. Who knows how to open the bonet obviously.

I survived a week of A&E shift. It's an 8 hours shift starting from 1PM - 9PM everyday except the Sundays and Mondays for me. I have a love-hate relationship with this whole shift works.


What I like about it is

1. I can wake up late. Works well for me - not a morning person.
2. The ice and snow has started melting when I'm about to leave the house.
3. Lunch at home before work - jimat and no boring and tasteless hospital food no more.
4. No on-calls for 4 weeks and not involved in any mickey-mouse hospital politics upstairs.

What I don't like about it is

1. I ended up waking up so late/few hours before work because I'm always dead tired from the shift. So rushing to work too.
2. The ice and snow has started accumulating again before I leave the hospital at night. Plus it is bitterly cold.
3. Driving alone in the snow in the dark at 10PM+ is scary. I almost cried in one occasion. Takut kene gigit hantu.
4. Arriving home at 10PM+ with a huge hunger pang from not able to eat during the shift coz it's always mad busy. So eating at 10PM+ something dinner equivalent. Bad. Bad diet.
5. Missing the morning teachings and journal presentations upstairs.

A&E alone has served me different spectrum of affinities. One day I'm loving it to the fullest the next hating it with a passion. Some GPs in the area are just plain dumb and irresponsible with non-sense referral to the A&E. I made a hypothesis that some mutants have landed in the area long long time ago and bred with the locals. Hence the very weird personalities and morale of some people in general. Ah no point in spending time thinking about it. Wasting my brain ATPs only.

On the other hand, yes I'm learning so much on general paediatrics as well. From small rashes to the toxic meninggococcal septicaemic ones. Reflux vomiting to vomiting due to pyloric stenosis. Normal coughs to pertussis ones. It takes a lot to come to be competent with speed, accuracy, confidence, ethical. I'm not even halfway there yet. I must admit some of the staff nurses are demi good as well.

Ah like Mak said, let time and time tells. Her constant prayers will always be with me.

woke up from a bad dream, and the snow is melting..

My dreams are teasing me. These days it's either a no dream sleep or a bad one. Maybe I'm fretting at what future beholds, or what the world has left to offer - the economic recession (savings?), the global warming, the social downturns, the land occupation, my exam result (!), life in general. Maybe I just need to wash my feet before going to bed like Mak used to say. The water's too cold these days Mak!

It's probably one of the coldest wintery weather hitting the Irish and British lands for the past 2 days. I wasn't too excited about it, neither did I loathe it. It's like - typical Dublin. Cold, windy, specks of sunshine, then snow - unpredictable. So not surprised anymore.

Let's hope people stays in in this type of weather. I'm expecting a quiet A&E today.

Toodles!