Acheh

Ever had the idea of scribbling the whatever grubbles left at your used-to-be home, just in case someone else forgot that there was once a house there? I never did, until I witnessed it with my very eyes.

Wait for Projek Nanggroe Acheh Darussalam 2005..

"Tidak ada sesuatu musibahpun yang menimpa seseorang kecuali dengan izin Allah SWT, dan barangsiapa yang beriman kepada Allah, nescaya Dia akan memberi petunjuk kepada hatinya. Dan Allah Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu." (At-Taghaabun: 11)

people's problem's mine

I'm left alone at home after Ola and Adik went back to colleges. The bad thing is I have to take over Ola's chores, which means a new housewife job for me, and the bad thing also is I've lost my loyal driver, Adik, who's willing to take me anywhere I'd go.Well the good thing is, em, nothing I guess, none's good when you're left alone with no eating and fighting buddies. Wait, think I could do the latter with Naqib at times. Hehe. At least losing in the former case wouldn't be so much troublesome, considering the toothache I've been having for weeks now. Nak makan pun susah sakit gigi ni.

On Friday I went to MERCY Office in Ampang after been receiving calls for few days from the volunteer manager who said, "Akhirnya datang pun menyerah diri budak ni," when I finally showed up. Sengih je lah. Oh it was fun working there, met a couple of aunties whom, from my understanding being Datuk Dr Jemilah's closest buddies. When they came I thought it was for some official purposes, who'd guess they pulled out the chairs and sat one table with few young volunteers doing the office works together. So basically, middle-aged housewives, filthy rich, volunteering. That's interesting. Guess there's always kindness and peace when you thought madness and cruelty has conquered the world.

Well, I was making phone calls to the volunteers for some upgrading database works when K.Zu called it for lunch. We went out eating at the stalls under the trees nearby. For once I thought I've lost my sense of time after a good hours of working, then only I realized that it was not me, I was basically intact. So it was lunch time on Friday noon and I thought maybe those guys who were happily eating their lunch out had their wristwatches damaged, or maybe they were in the mode of bermusafir, I dunno, just guessing the possibilities that made them excusing themselves from solat Jumaat that day. No offense, but honey if you don't have the shame to Allah, just please feel ashamed to other human beings. It was as if I was the one who escaped from my responsibilities that I was the one who was tersipu-sipu malu looking at them.

Goodness, we are moving towards being a developed country, and yet we have the burden of underdeveloped ummahs like these. Bak kata Sayid Qutb 'tamadun ini umpama seekor burung yang berkibas dengan sebelah sayap yang amat gagah, sedangkan sayapnya yang sebelah lagi patah, ia meningkat maju dalam kemajuan kebendaan, tapi jatuh dalam konsep insaniyah, ia mengalami masalah kegelisahan, kebingungan dan penyakit jiwa dan saraf'. The only way out? Back to the Creator! Period.

Well, that's my khutbah Jumaat you've missed last Friday dear. Next time kalau takmo pegi solat Jumaat dudukla menyorok dalam ofis makan megi, jangan sakitkan mata orang lain dengan pemadangan yang tak best.

Oh my, I don't like spending the rest of this entry nagging about the painful truth about Muslims nowadays. I know I am not perfect, but being a decent human beings, I want to be perfected by my faith. I believe everyone else does too. Memanglah all these while we have always been mangsa keadaan, mangsa sistem pendidikan sekular British. Tapi takkanlah nak jadi mangsa sampai bila-bila kan? The world is changing it's views on Islam, hari ni London kena bomb, esok paling kurang 10 orang peluk Islam. Don't believe me? Go out, open your eyes and observe, like I used to read somewhere, cuba lihat dunia dari pandangan mata burung, bukan pandangan katak dari bawah tempurung kaca. Still don't get it? Balik rumah tanya mak OK.

holidays, so far

So far, well I could say nothing much had happened. My surge of passion for food has calmed down after few concerns on gaining weights during this holidays, my only weapon to counter that would be, if it's not now, then it's only going to be next summer, well that's IF I go back home next summer. U know with the Germany 2006 coming and my concerns on doing something serious like a research or so, somehow summer in the Europes seems a little fine for me. But don't count on my words people, you know me.

After the trip to the school, I've been going in and out with my 2 sisters and family, sometimes friends. Other than that, most free times were spent at home with nephews, mum and dad, and my giant-little brother who's currently on holidays. Only last weekend I attended the 2-days *PPIM's Scientific Conference at the Grand Seasons Hotel in the midst of hectic Chow Kit Road. I was one of the medical students who couldn't afford the fees so ended up as volunteers in the run of the programme. Not quite like another medical conference, this one gave me the window to look medicine not just being physical, but more spiritual as it should be. Like one of the doctors said in her talk, 'This what differs PPIM from the **MMA, we have the ruh that they lack with'. I couldn't agree more.

Anyway, on the second day of the conference I spent most times at the stalls; PPIM's and MERCY's. Well the former was totally understood, as for the latter, it was actually my first task as a MERCY volunteer assigned by the volunteer manager I met on that day. I coudn't say more, this is what I've been searching for, now Allah has opened me the way. All Praises only for One Lord! Many more tasks are coming, inshaAllah with all my mights I'll try to do this. Afterall, we are the best of nation ever to be brought forth for people, what else shall we do if not to benefit the ummahs, ordering honor and forbidding dishonor. (3:110)

So far, not so busy, but had these words coming from mum already;

'Asyik nak keluar tolong orang je, ni tolong Mak kat rumah dulu.'

Been a bit lazy lately I admit, have to improve on that I will. Eh macam Master Yoda pula cakap terbalik.

Roger and out.

*PPIM: Persatuan Perubatan Islam Malaysia
**MMA: Malaysian Medical Association