Friday, October 17, 2003

the i-missed-evrything-day..

Sometimes in life you feel the fight is over,
And it seems as though the writings on the wall,
Superstar you finally made it,
But once your picture becomes tainted,
It's what they call,
The rise and fall...
-rise&fall...craigdavid&sting

nice slow song that goes smoothly into ur ears yet full of meanings..for me i dunno whether i'm in my 'rise' phase or wut but i dun think that i'm in my 'fall' phase now..i never had any experience, never know wut it feels like to be on top of everything but i'm striving to be one, so pray hard so i can push myself and later i can tell evryone how's the feelings like..hehe..

i'm so happy today..FINALLY i've finished my psychology project after spending one whole day staring at my laptop screen..so now all i have to do is purely just CONCENTRATE on my studies, the lectures that i haven't looked at yet and stop fooling around doing unnecessary things..i'm still stuck at one psychology lecture note that is the "Physiology of Pain" by Dr. Cliona Buckley and it feels like an endless thing to be looked at and i always have things that interrupt me the moment i started to look at that particular note..hmm..i'm not so sure y is that so...\(*_*)?

today is also the day that i missed evrything that i've scheduled before..firstly i missed my appointment to see the college's GP (general practitioner..ala ala dokter klinik kat mesia tu la..family dokter)..i dunno somehow i got a letter saying that it appears at their (Mercer GP) record that i still haven't completed my TB screening..one,never in my family had anybody who has TiBi and two, i did go to St. James Hospital for the x-ray and to Mercer GP for blood test last year..wut else do i have to do??

secondly, i missed my netball practise..err correction, i'm the reason y evryone didn't have their practise today because i was supposed to go checking with the student union whether the court is gonna be occupied by anybody today at 4.30, instead i just made my 'intelligent' assumption that nobody's gonna use it and it turned up that the men's basketball team are using it at 5..padammuke..the end product ot it=we won't be having any practise till the real tournament this sunday...i'm starting to feel that the mood of playing has already gone...

thirdly, i purposedly made myself to miss my swimming class..my last swimming class for the season..hmm it's just that i felt i've already spent most of my times playing and now i need 'em for my studies..guess now my housemates (yani, arnee and faha) have already wearing their suits ready for the splash..huhu..nevermind, i'll settle my priorities first...sunday's gonna be the real playing-day for me...

guys sing..
"It feels like something's heating up, can I leave with you?"
and ladies..
"I don't know what I'm thinking bout, really leaving with you"

...searching for the right one...

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

stuck!

i'm in the middle of my studies actually n i suddenly felt that my brain couldn't take the things that i was stuffing it into anymore n then i realized that i haven't performed my asar prayer yet..there goes the ding dong alarm from Him...huhu..so i went down to the 'dungeon'(basement part of library where sisters perform their prayer at) n pray there..at last i've all my psychology lectures updated n afterwards i'm gonna catch up with my pharmacology's (lots of 'em), some neuroanatomy (i think i'm beginning to like this chapter of anatomy) n one or two (i'm not so sure) physiology notes...

i have an interesting topic that i wanted to write but i dun think i can accomodate that one into my hectic schedule now so i hope i still have the topic up here in my brain when i have the free time..lately i think i dunno somehow sumthing special caught me up deep inside n i can't stop thinking of the thing..scary huh?the good part of it is that when it comes to a situation like this i'll always go back to Him n pray up so that He'll clear out the fog inside me n it makes me value my prayer more. maybe again this is another alarm of Him to me as i think lately i am turning to a more 'lagha' person..more sounds of music inside my ears than the sounds of appraisals to Him n i think this year is my least one of fasting n doing good deeds in the months of Rejab n Syaaban..it is!n soon Ramadhan's coming over..am i all ready for it?

another month of Ramadhan away from home...

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

catching up

i realized that i've only posted like 2 or 3 entries after i got back to dublin..haha i knew it that this thing might happened since i first put my hands into this bloggy things...

well today wasn't that bad..i had my lectures at 3-5p.m...n as usual i'm spending the rest of the day in the so-called my second home-the library...i'm sitting beside the window n a moment ago i just saw my crush passed me by with his damn georgeous face..funny that today he wears his snowcap on..never seen him like that b4..things are getting busier nowadays..i have like more than 5 lectures that i haven't look at yet n i have to submit my psychology project by next monday..misery misery misery..(n y am i still spending my times doing this thing?)

haha while writing i'm actually listening to few interesting songs that i retrieve from other's ppl music library (using the student server in the library, u actually can open files from other ppl's music library, i mean other ppl that's currently using the same server at the same time as yours)...n heh i guess this time the owner of this music library that i got is a malaysian coz i can see some malay songs there...so i'm currently listening to 'misery' by the moffats, the song that reminded me of my ol' times when i still have my 'fren' that i share a lot of songs with..the one that i share all my problems with n the one that share the same interest with me n also the one that i thot i'd spend my life with before (but not anymore)...funny how ppl change in a short period of time..hmmm...i'm not so sure, is this wut ppl call the process of evolution?

i can't really write much this time...have to catch up with things!i have a netball tournament this sunday, RCSI vs UCD( university college dublin) but amongst the malaysian only la...so my sunday would probably be gone just like that so i'll have to settle things i'm supposed to do on that day before the day comes...err wut kinda sentence is that..haha

***hold me now..i'm six feet from d edge.....

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

cold day...

huh quite some times since i didn't make a new entry..n now i think is d purrfect time..i'm in the library now n it's nearly 6p.m..the library, at the ground floor as usual as busy as ever, ppl lingering around whispering away some unheard words, but me sitting still with my headphones on hearing my favourite songs, ignoring 'em all...today is superspecial to this one part of the library, the place where ppl uses their laptop, coz today the new students got their BRAND NEW AND IMPROVED version of macintosh x...envy them for the internal cd burner and also the dvd player..lucky i got one new student in my house, Faha (former kursyian, Yanie's pal back in school)..boley aaa tompang sekaki..hakhak..even this guy beside me is setting up his laptop, following the instructions given...hmm..rezki depa nak wat camne..i'll just stick to this ol' usefull laptop....

it's getting cold around here..ppl have already started wearing their colorful mufflers n gloves and also long coats around...i sent mine to dry cleaning last friday n should be today the collecting day but think of taking it tomorrow..tahan aa sejuk for one day...n i must buy a pair of gloves coz i lost mine..think of buying a brown one that matches with my muffler (that particular muffler that matches my crush's one..huhu)..winter's coming over n nights getting earlier than usual..i don't like that coz i can't do much in the morning...woke up at 7 n it's still dark outside, go to class n by 5 in the evening it's already dark again..how much can ppl do within that duration of time???n i also hate the fact that winter is COLD...i'll be in my duvet all the times, wearing robe in the house with socks on n have the electric heater on till next month when the bills come i'll have to cut down the expanses to pay 'em...how hard life is...i still have to face it....

study is ok...i'm currently updating my studies so that i can steal times to do revision on things from my last 3 terms...i haven't buy a study table yet so at home i just study on my bed---the consequenses are baddd...i'll end up sleeping or pouring inks on my bedsheet...i still don't have the gut to go back home from the library when it's already dark outside coz it's dangerous to walk home alone in the dark(last times i took a bus home coz it's not within a walking distance..now i moved to a new closer place, dun think it's appropriate to take a bus..i'll waste away my 80 cents..)...have to do sumthing bout it..if i go home early i'll waste my times doing inappropriate things...but i'll jeopardize my life if i go back late...whick one do i choose..haha..

i have to look on psychology notes now...there's 2 of 'em n i dun think i'll manage to finish 'em b4 dark..gambate!!

miss my family n frens...i really want to have s'one that i can talk to but i dunno who (n how to get him/her) :p ....