too much is so much

today went really well, unexpectedly (thanks Allah!)..i've been thinking bout many things over the weekend and realized that i really had too much of things lately

..too much of playing..

err correction: less studying and too much of playing..i've bought a basketball (rubber, not standard size, 10euro) and that distracts me so much..whenever i finished my class early, i met with friends at the college and started playing..i really enjoyed it but it really consumed my times (when u start playing, u hardly can stop!)..it was my idea at the first place, i was so numbed with my typical med student life and i wanna have that colors in life again, like in school, down at court playing in the evening or on the field hitting targets acting like a she-robin hood :p but then, the comfort of this kind of freedom left the studies behind i guess..yep i also played tennis down at the Trinity College last Saturday (my college is so small even the bball court is not in the standard measure! what more of a tennis court, or a couple!) been leaving tennis for God-knows how many years, i had a wonderful time playing in the hot weekend sun (thanks Him for the lovely sunny day, at last, in Dublin- my face is a bit sunburnt i think haha)..this left me of so little revisions done over the weekend!

all work and no play make Jack a dull boy..but too much play and less work make him a stupid boy! (my quote--no heart feelings to any Jack out there :p)

..too much of TV..

oh God this is my real problem now..it's like a real strong magnetic field that i can't barely get out of it..too much of drama series that i've been following since the start of them and now i couldn't get myself to not to be involved with them till the end (ya Allah what a stupid explaination!)..and blame all the producers for putting all the cute leading guys in the series, i couldn't stop drooling over them now..haha..better than drooling over real men out in the streets i guess..yeah one sub-sub heading of this sub-heading---- too much of cute guys..it has gotten me to realize how the westerns are really creating an environment of SUPERFICIALS..you must be looking good if u wanna be out there..u must wear the latest designs to be on top of everyone..watching the programme they put on MTV-I wanna have the celeb. look..man people are going way way too much just to look like Brad Pitt or Britney..and plastic surgeons are making all the profits, acting God as if they can..do they ever think that changing their looks would never change the genetic compartments that make up that looks? wut a fool, no way they can escape when realizing that children of theirs have that big crooked nose or ears that really protruded out or wutever things that they deny of, in one fine day..ppl still know, u can run but u can't hide from Allah's creations..

..too much of drifting away from Him..

i realized that i spent less time 'talking' to Him lately..i've lost that sense of istiqamah in my relationship with Him..i was only so close to Him and so much needed Him during those hard times and now i've got what i want, i only do the usual routines, no special attributes, no waking in the middle of the nite calling Him to tell all the unbearable problems..i feel sorry for myself..too much of distractions- sports, songs, studies, series (drama)..and i was so drifted by all this temporary sweet things..went for qiamullail programme last Saturday in Dublin Mosque..realized that i missed listening to the azan so much that i nearly cried hearing one..and that nite was the nite wasn't like any others..despite the many people around, i felt so comfortable 'talking' to Him like there was simply no distraction..ya Allah forgive me, startled by the ingoing nikmat u give despite my ignorance of U..

and again, today everything went unexpectedly well (thanks Him!)