over-generalized

OK i was too generalizing when i said all malay movies are dissappointing. my apology. thinking back there are some movies that i like, and i'd be proud showing to my foreign friends. for examples there are Sayang Salmah, Jimi Asmara, Azizah The Legend, even Spinning Gasing, so on and so forth. they all have things in common: good flow, exotic performances, potray the real things in our country, be it 40 years ago or nowadays, etc. that are the things i'd be looking for in a movie, it doesn't always have to be high in technologies or having famous stars in there (yeah i admit that sometimes it has to be). i'm not a picky when it comes to watching movies, be it in Tagalog, Thailand, French, Arabic, Greek, as long as they have good performances and the viewers get the message that was tried to be conveyed after they finished watching the movies. simple.

so sorry again to any malay movie lovers out there, it wasn't my intention to make the statement being somehow a generalization to all malay movies.

akhir kata, sokongla industri perfileman negara. haha

p/s: tonite i found the solution of my puzzle, God it was truly worth waiting.

post-BTN

i keep writing here halfway and never post any entry since i got back from BTN.

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remember i told you about going to BTN? i came back yesterday after spending the past 5 days at Kem Sg. Semilang, Kuala S'gor. like I told you, I wasn't really looking forward for it, but thinking back I realized that of the 3 BTNs I’ve gone, that was the best I would say in terms of the knowledge that I got.

there were 165 participants who are the students from Ireland, United Kingdom and USA. most are medicine students, followed by engineerings, few actuarial sciences and one advance mathematic student. like expected, they're all very good people, knowledgable and talented
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i wrote that one a day after i got back and lost my concentration when my brother played the movie pontianak harum sundal malam that night. haha (what a terrible movie, i couldn't find the flow and i was lost halfway thru watching it. this is reason why i'm not into malay movies. they're dissappointing)

so BTN was OK, i'm not grading it as great as it was not like i was expecting it to be. i went there half-heartedly and i think He really knew how i was feeling at that time. the first nite arriving there, i was sitting at the very rear end of the hall during the first meeting, and surprisingly i was called to sit at the front most as there was an empty seat there. next, i caused a massive havoc when the person who was giving the speech asked me " Tahun berapa (he meant tahun berapa i went to my last BTN)" and naive me answered "Tahun 83 (the year i was born)"...Ya Ampun Tuhan aje yg tahu betapa malunya time tu...the hall was blasted with laughter, even my Dublin friends who were seating by my side were in tears of laughter. and then it just got more interesting as i was picked to be the AJK Dewan by the jurulatih there, i repeat PICKED without my consent. and again the whole hall laughed when he chosed me, that-83-girl!! at that moment i knew i have to straighten my niat of going to BTN, tell my whole self to really BE there and gain the benefits of the 5 days course. and i did, i supposed.

so the whole ceramah on the first day weren't that beneficial to me, my mind was wondering for the whole lot of them. the topics were the same as any BTN i supposed, about negara bangsa, rakyat, pendidikan, how more lame can they be? the second day was the starting of the LDK (latihan dalam kumpulan) and i think i had a great bunch of people in my group. there were 17 of us, and most are medical students. i had a reunion with a friend of mine who went sailing with me on the KLD Tunas Samudera when i was in high-school. most of the guys were very outspoken and broad-minded, and some girls too. the first day was the icebreaking session, and i learnt to accept the fact that there are great divergence in people's ideologies and principles, and they are bound to be respected. these people are seriously very talented ones, we almost had a fight between ourselves when we were debating on a topic in the evening.

so the topics that were discussed for the whole sessions were more to an eye-opener for me, i realized that there are more than text-book materials in this world that i should know about. taking politic as an example, though it sucks and how much i hate it, i think i have to really start searching and looking for the real idea about it (or i can continue being an ignorant, migrate to another country and marry a foreigner with real green eyes. haha u wish). we discussed on the topic i'd say might sounds boring initially but brought on to be more interesting by the different ways looking at it. i was startled by how well-informed the students are and tried not to look that stupid and ignorant by throwing some ideas and left the floor to evaluate my opinions. basically we talked on globalization, patriotism, politics (the one which i was fairly being silent all the time) and few other more, i couldn't recall them. like i once said, i like to analyze people by observation, and meeting these bunch of interesting people made my brain worked for most of the time.

other than the LDK, i coudn't find any other reason to give a plus to the course. there were no kembara on the last day, and the place where we stayed weren't that satisfying, but i can sure you that the food was awesome! yes that would be the other reason i think. haha. but yeah, it's the knowledge that i got that counts.

quote from the BTN

"jgn sampai semangat patriotism yg kita pupuk dlm diri menjadi semangat nasionalism yg mana ditegah dalam Islam"

at least there are people that put religion as their priority. my salut to them.

tonsillitis, anyone?

My left tonsil really hurts now, it is swollen, I can feel the bulging whenever I swallow my saliva. I found it very hard to eat, the problem is I always use my left molar teeth for grinding as my 2nd lower molar on the right has a huge hole in it so I spare it when eating as I don’t want the food to be stuck in the hole and causing more problem. So now the tonsil is badly tender, I can’t get the food to be on the left side of the mouth for grinding, but I don’t intend to use the right ones as prevention. So what now? My parents wanted to bring me to the clinic nearby tonight but I insist of going as I don’t really feel like meeting people tonight. (anak degil, kata mereka).

It’s fun though as I get to show Along and Naqib where exactly the tonsil is in the mouth, I simply open my mouth wide and told them to look for the red and swollen thing on the left, yes it is protruded out that one can simply appreciate it by just looking. I think most people get confused between tonsil and UVULA, I always thought that uvula was tonsil before. Uvula is the ‘u’ thing that sticks down from your soft palate at the back of your throat, the one u can see when u open your mouth wide enough while TONSIL is an aggregation of lymphoid tissues situated between your palatoglossal and palatopharygeal arches in your mouth. Phew, my anatomy wasn’t that bad as I thought it was huh. Haha. (gosh how I miss learning those things). I’m afraid I can’t simply tell u where it is in normal term but there are both on the left and on the right OK.

Today Adik and I went to Along’s house, she’s going to Kuching again tonight for the unfinished projects, and I wanted to borrow some stuff from her for the BTN. Naqib has chicken pox and the rashes are all over his body. He was sad for the fact that he can’t go to school anymore. Aperla if it was me, I’d be screaming happily for the holidays I got, this is the thing that I don’t understand in small kids nowadays. Haha. We then went to IOI Mall to buy some stuff for Adik as he’s going back to his college in the evening. I saw some girls in familiar attires, how could I forget that the students of my former high school do their shopping there on Sundays. Aiseyman.

I bought him the kettle he wanted and myself a CD, it was Pria Terhebat, the latest album from SO7. What can I say about it, when u love a band, u’ll just enjoy whatever songs they play aight? I was looking at the cover album and reading their words of appreciations for the album, and again was touched by them. Some sayings

“… Adel & Penerusku yang masih di dalam perutnya…” – Duta

“…Sheila on 7 (t’rimakasih atas persaudaraan 8 tahun (dan lebih) yang menakjubkan ini)…” - Eross

“…ROSS-DUT-SAK-TON..semoga kita tetap MEMBATU!!!..” – Adam
----> membatu???apekah??

“…my custom sticks, my both hands and legs..” – Anton

and I just knew that Duta’s full name is Akhdiyat Duta Modjo. Haha macam nama pendekar dlm cerita lawan terbang2 kat TV tu.

This band really reminds me of the purest bond of relationship God gives, we call it FRIENDSHIP.

dazed and confused

scratching my itchy we-wanna-write-everynite fingers.

it's 2 in the morning and here i am at the crossroads once again (it's the song). i hate making decisions, i do. how do i choose between the 2 things that i'm really looking forward to do? i think i'm gonna just leave it there, pray and let my heart calls it later.

there's some progressions of the book i'm reading, and i am really stucked on it now.

my left tonsils hurts, i think they are red and swollen. tonsillitis?

i watched a romantic Thailand movie on Prima tonight. it was really a great story of TRUE LOVE. i wonder if that still exists in reality.

(that four-lettered words, i wonder if u still remember it)

crap. geli telinga dgn ayat sendiri. haha.

copa america is on. i have another reason to be staying up late, after euro04 and jet-lagged.

BTN. anyone wants to be a substitution for me? we can go and do the 'face-off' kind of things to our face.

i am really delusioning.

keeping up

noticed me writing something here every single night of my holidays? pathetic eh? i dunno, i lost my appetite on the telly since i got back, the only soap that i watch is Sephia with that cute Ako and that's about it. yeah maybe in the evening i watch The Simpsons with Naqib, and that's IF we're not out or i don't spend the evening chasing him to the bathroom. i try to watch more malay soaps, or any indonesian ones on Prima, or any hindi movies (bab menari yg lemah tu), but nothing amuses me anymore. back in Dublin i can watch the same episode of Friends over and over again till i know all the scripts by heart i think (try me) and never get bored by it. and hell ya i miss Futurama. i want more malay soaps, c'on isn't there any nice dramas on TV now? where have all Rashid Sibir's or Aziz M. Osman's dramas gone? c'on put on the talented Nasha Aziz, Rosyam Noor, Umi Aida, Ako, Hans, anyone, i need soaps!!i'll regret it later when i go back if i don't watch more.

i'm reading a book now and i'm telling you that i'm not a reader. in my life i can put on the figure of storybooks that i've read, and it's not even up to 10 i think. i am the kind of person that's easily lost my concentration over a thing due to some outside stimuli. so when i'm reading with the telly on, i have to read the same line in the storybook for few times while filtering my mind of the show that's on TV at that time, so i'd end up losing my interest of the book later on. but this time i dunno, it happened when i was waiting for Yani to buy some books at Eason the day before we went back, i was just holding this particular book and i read the synopsis and it wasn't bad at all (since it was on the Bestseller's shelves). so i started reading the page, and i couldn't really stop reading there at that moment. so not like me, with the people moving around me. the book was on sale, but still i was badly broke as Eason was our last shop before we wrapped up the shopping-marathon on that day, there were just coins in my purse at that time. i was tempted by Yani using her credit card, but yes i countered the temptation there. bravo me!

so my first outing to Kinokuniya, i found the book and without any hesitation, i bought it. it was The Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown, and i categorized it as a mystery/thriller type. i like it as the story takes place at Musee du Lourve, Paris, and my memoires of the place is still fresh inside as i visited the place only on last March. there are some sentences in French, which i enjoy guessing the meanings (rusty french i got) and while reading i can clearly imagine the scenes as depicted by the author. just a warning in case anyone interested in the book, u may feel a lil bit uncomfortable reading it as there are strong Christianity affluences in it. but the storyline is interesting, though it is some kinda heavy material. and it's gonna take me long to finish it i presumed considering my nephew being around and the chores i have to take care of. so give all the lucks to me huh, make sure i don't waste my RM34.99 on it.

wait a minute, i think it wasn't my intention to write on the book earlier. what was it huh? damn it