reinforcing reinforcements

As promised, here goes. The so-called frequent update. I don't know why am I doing this. But sometimes things can be done for no reasons at all ain't it?

I think I'm beginning to like Paeds. Last week it was about fitting in and giving the best impressions, so I wasn't seeking for the 'joy' of working yet. As I'm beginning to settling down, I can tell that it's a different fun working in this field.

First of all, I became totally selfless, well that's a bit too much. Probably less selfish putting it more appropriately. If last time I used to justify a lot what I did on the wards, hence sometimes refused to heed the call for silly stuff on the wards, well not anymore this time. It's always been 'about the kids'. The innocent kids who are born with illnesses they don't even know about. It's the purity and innocence which made one more to become selfless I'd say.

"I've never met someone doing Paeds who's unhappy." Someone used to say that to me.

I don't know about that, you'll never know when things gonna hit you low. But I do understand the concept of it, no matter how much the job takes out of you, physically and mentally, sometimes a little kiddies smile can cure it all. Aha I'm a tad bit too philosophical now.

Coming back to reality, I was on-call with one of the best registrars in the hospital last night. It was a OK call to be honest with you, I expected worse. It was in the morning that I found out that she didn't actually sleep the whole night after being called for sick kids on the wards and in A&E. Despite all that, she was smiling and still remaining the cool. So I asked her, "How was last night's call for you for Paeds standard?" She replied, "It was moderate." Smiled

I choked.

Otherwise, the team has been OK. I think my Big Boss is a Superhero (imagining her in Wonder Woman suit). She saves lives and looks cool too. She probably had Intel Centrino or whatever processor implanted in her brain long before computer was invented. How awesome. I have to really start dieting to prepare myself in my Superhero suit too (black leather Cat Woman suit?). I have to start studying I mean....

I'm thinking of a new personal project for fund raising for the hospital. Any ideas? (As if clinical jobs, exams, etc are not busy enough.)

Till then.

what's been up

Yes we could do some updates don't we? Here goes, in no chronological order.

"Hi, I'm Wan. SHO Resp (respiratory)."

No I didn't really have the thrills in my heart when I said that on the first meeting with the new people in the hospital, when I know I should. Partly because, in paediatrics I'm still the lowest in the food-chain as there's no interns, so I sometimes still partially assuming that I'm still an intern so running around doing intern jobs. Most of the times it's because I have MINIMAL knowledge in this field. It's been ages since I last do paeds and that was in student days. So I had to search somewhere in my rusty brain about the weird syndromes that they mentioned, the weird investigations that they don't do in adults to the simplest treatment of asthma and plotting centile charts. Fun fun.

Other than that, I think paeds suits me well. The new team comprises of 2 top respiratory Consultants, one being a specialist in CF, a third year Specialist Registrar, J, and a third day SHO paeds ever, that's myself. You can tell there the huge gap in knowledge hehe. I think the team is OK, mad busy, but OK. J finished his membership exams all in one go when he was at my level, so I have another people to look up to and learn from. He's a cool guy all right.

The big boss is tough I have to say, but you have to be when you're dealing with sick kids. I thought I knew someone who's OCD enough, she's like super OCD to the power of 12. Very meticulous and thorough. So I've been working hard to become super OCD to the power of 13, at least one power higher than her so to impress her. Hehe. But yeah, I'm very new in this field, and I'm ready to learn, bring it on.


Congratulations, new doctors!

Most of my friends have graduated in June. I still remember the sugar-high feeling being on stage receiving the 5 years hard-earned degree, it was good. Now it's a year passed already, so fast. Nevertheless, all the best on the new jobs. Surely internship is more about clerical less medical but grab the chance to learn the system and organisations, do courses, research perhaps. It's a fun year believe me (hiding pinocchio nose).

With Dr Linda, Dr Wan & Dr Farihah at RCSI Conferring Ceremony

With Dr Jazree & Dr Hanif @ TCD Graduation Day (kantoi la plak pakai tudung sama on both occasion..)

Of kompang and wedding bells

Again, my heartiest congratulations to my friends who tied the knots recently. As before, I was not there to attend the weddings. So to Shahnim & Amir, Mieza & hubby (aku lupa sapa nama husband Miezah), may Allah SWT blesses your marriage with love and happiness. Same for the upcoming weddings; DilaSu & partner, Hanif & Aneesa, Ecah & partner, Naim & Hanif,..(trying to remember who else). I am utterly devastated I can't attend your big day but time is just not on my side, yet. Hopefully it will soon.


Blood is thicker than water

So my Ola came and visit me for a week. It's good to see her like that coz I missed her. We went to France for 5 days - Paris, Nice and Monaco and came back with the real tan. Hehe. I used to be her little sister she wished she never had, yes I was a grumpy demanding kid. Now it's all fun reminiscing about it. Though we still fight about things so insignificant like who's sunglasses are cooler or who has a better complexion (she does), she's still the sister who stood by me all along, hand-washed my tudung on this visit (I hate doing laundry remember) and gave her shoulders and wiped my tears on saying goodbye at the airport.

Sunglasses @ La Tour Eiffel, Paris

Just glasses @ Nice, C'ote D'azure

Contact lenses/no eyewear @ Dublin Airport

New place, new life

I'm not supposed it's new, but it's definitely different. Different is new right? I moved from the old place, there's the new job with the new title, the old familiar crowd whom I used to hang out with are gone, some serious new crowd, busier job, there's plan for doing exams, etc etc. I am a new woman too perhaps.

South Dublin City view from the window in my room

I can drive!

This one deserves a heading on its own. For years I've been trying to achieve greater stuff in my life, each time I still feel inadequate because I cannot drive on the roads. Yes I'm a doctor and no I cannot drive. How ridiculous is that. A doctor who cannot drive. So I made up my mind, for once and for all, I have to try to encounter my greatest fear of being on the roads and driving on the wrong lane and hitting a cat like a pancake, etc etc. So I finally did it on mid May, I was actually driving on the highway! Big part of it was a help from a friend, some from my own guts and most of it came from God the Almighty. Eventhough it was a rental car, an automatic transmission one, I still did it. I'm not disabled anymore! Yay!

Rathmines in the morning, picking up a friend on the way to work

So that's a wrap for now. Part of the new job resolutions (if there's such thing), is to try to update the blog more frequently. Most of it will be about the jobs (warning non-medics) also just on life. We'll see.

Tagged

Aha. Here it goes. Part one..

Tagged by: Aneesa

LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR :

1. Free RETURN TICKETS KL-Dublin, to- and fro- every months for 2 years. Yeah worth the DVT long hours flight risk. I don't care..
2. A bibik.
3. Another Jimmy. I miss you.
4. Pintu suka hati. Tolonglah Doraemon..
5. A holiday house in the Alps

LIST OUT THE REASONS FOR YOUR CHOICES :

1. I can go home and be with my loved ones for at least one weekend every month.
2. Her job descriptions only include; doing the laundry and ironing, dusting and hovering the house. Nothing else. I'll do the cooking, clean the dishes, mind the kids (haha). I just need fresh ironed clothes and dust free house. Yippie..
3. I need a pet cat. It'd be great if he looks like late Jimmy. Mak used to say - kalau bela kucing murah rezeki sebab kucing selalu doakan kita bila kita bagi dia makan. Another friend pointed out the fact that orang Cina letak patung kucing dgn tangan melambai-lambai masuk macam dekat kedai emas tu as lucky charm. So how?

Jimmy, Le Chat Blanch
2006-2008

Jimmy reborn? Oh no..

4. Boleh pergi safari in South Africa hari ni pastu besok bukak pintu dah sampai ke Gold Coast, Australia. Wah wah wah...(mata bersinar sinar)
5. So I can go ski every year and my kids can go too and my kids' kids can go too. We'd be the cool ski family, eventhough we will be living in the scorching Malaysian sun. Yay for skiii...snow-plough, pizza, fries, snow-plough..

THE PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU IS : Aneesa

5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM/HER :

1. Super thin
2. Eats A LOT and never stimulates her satiety center
3. Impressions no 1 and 2, enough to make me impressed of her. Hehe. I'd gain 1 kg by just staring at a slice of cream cake. No kidding.
4. Bangi mate. Goooo Bangi!
5. Same minds we are most of the times. Great minds think alike ay? Bila projek Afrika nak jalan ni? Hehe.

MOST MEMORABLE THING HE/SHE HAS DONE FOR YOU :

From Bangi to Cambodia to Dublin to Turkey and back to Bangi, through and through..those were the days..

MOST LOVED INVENTION :

Kereta automatic transmission. Thank God for this..haha..

WHAT DO YOU DESPISE THE MOST

Temptations. Which I succumbed into lately. Actually I should hate myself not them.

PEOPLE YOU WANT TO TAG :

Most of my peeps have probably being tagged before me, considering I took moons to get it done with. Anywho, here goes.

1. Iza Kusha, if you're reading this
2. Shahirah
3. Mieza
4. Thirah
5. Ainun Nisa
6. Aliza
7. Ikha, if you haven't done it, and yep, I do read your blog
8. Anep
9. Kop
10. Jaz, with no chance it's being done anyway

Boleh ke aku tag ramai-ramai ni..hehe..

Cheerios~

in and around..

Hey. I'm back.

The fuel and electricity price hiking is not doing the deal with the people at homeland. Ezam has returned to UMNO. My cat Jimmy died from fever/sepsis last Friday. So sad. My mom consoled me by saying, "Dah sampai ajal dia, nak buat macam mana. Jangan sedih.."

I was talking to one of my dearly beloved friends few weeks back. I was sunk in the concept of guilty pleasure. Sometimes things so wrong can feel right if we lose our conscience. I decided to play along, but I know it's difficult to lie to the heart. How can something so sweet be so wrong. Complexity complexity..

The TV says in every 3 seconds at least one people die from hunger. I think I ate too much cheese. You know at home you can go and buy karipap or keropok lekor for savoury desserts when you feel like it, especially in the evening after work. Here there's no such things. They only have sweet desserts. No karipap at the stall. So the solution is cheese-based food. Coz there's no karipap. And keropok lekor. How stupid is this place. Made me fat from eating cheese.

Part of growing up, I have learned so many new skills. I now master the selective hearing and selective memory skills. I can just mute down people's voices whenever I feel like it. And decide not to remember anything annoying that I don't want to. Cool aight? So I have been enjoying the mute show especially on the wards which I won't really have any recollections after. Super cool. I feel like a superhero already.

Aha. That's the bleep going off. Selective hearing button now activated..

le hiatus

Hey. I'm still alive.

Feels like moons ago since I last wrote here. So how have you been?

As you can imagine many things happened in the interim. For an instance I had my first ski experience on my first ski trip ever. Ouh I aced this sport. For now that'll be my latest interest. Skiiii. Wait till the high season next winter. Tunggulah.

half of the crew on sketch..I love ski I love ski I love ski..

I have switched to the last rotation in the surgical posting, now breast & general. I missed A&E and my cool consultants. Yes my previous encounters with A&E consultants have put me into conclusion that - all A&E consultants are indeed COOL. I have the prime consultant who love speaking French in between conversations and also make Ernie & Bert's voices on the phone when he was put on hold. Yes Ernie & Bert from the Sesame Street.

le favourite childhood show

The other consultant who's supposed to be 50ish at age still talks about CD collections that Jack Black gave his students in the movie School of Rock. He also once explained to us his conspiracy theory of how Irish ministers were appointed that he compiled and put on power-point slides. That was on the Friday mornings we're supposed to get our weekly A&E teaching, about emergencies and saving people's lives..

Moving on to the new team. The dysfunctional new team. Part of the reason why I rarely update le blog these days, is because I go home very frustrated and depressed I thought I'd turn the blogsphere very sour if I keep constantly whining about the new team here. THEY JUST SUCK BIG TIME. That's it. And I'm at the verge of rebelling. Try me.

It's easy to get frustrated these days. I realized that I've been a fool few times, repented and fell back into the dump. I've been self-less and accomodating others while I was accomodated less. I hate being selfish but I hold myself so low if I don't. So again, I learned from the falls and being hurt.

It has almost been a year passed by. The newborn me last July can walk now if not run a little. We all grow up don't we...

I have a tag to do..and a lot more to tell..stay tuned..