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I am bad in managing my free times, so bad that I think all my so-called best laid plans that I did before the exam turned out to be wut they are not supposed to be..i think I’m the kind of person that’s really comfortable when my time is scheduled by other people, like the one back in high school where the administrators did all the schedules for you, woke up at 6 (yeah yeah when u’re in form 5 u’ll wake up at 6.45 or even 7 when the bell’s gonna be rung at 7.15) and headed to class knowing that every coming second is fixed and your name gonna be taken by the prefect on duty if u’re even 5 minutes off schedules..i guess I’m so used being that way that right now I’m facing my hard times to really fixing my own schedules and keep them running on time..bad eh?

In my last entry I mentioned of writing about wut happened in my past 2/3 months..believe it or not that I already forgotten all things that I wanted to write about ..haha this whole holiday stuff really makes my head rusty..i think I’ll just keep them away for a while and continue writing on other stuff..yeah when I finally remember them I’ll write them down here..dun worry..

My holiday..my rommie Arnee once told me “cuti pun susah jugak sebab nak kene pikir ape nak buat..kalau tak cuti senang jek tak yah pikir..belajar jek..”..hehe I found that opinion to be correct!!I think after spending these initial 2 weeks of my holidays, I’ve been wasting my times so much..all my initial plans ruined by the instant plan made in a day..i’ve been jumping on one book to another, not sticking to one book at all and without any comprehension of any..mind you, they’re not in any way connected to medical books aa..hehe..but the only thing I do that really is in my plan is WATCHING TV AND VCDs AND DVDs…huh I have a hellavu times doing those things..i went to my friends’ places and watch some..at home I watch many2 dvd and vcd that I didn’t have the chance to watch before the exam..kekadang tu rasa boring la jugak..maybe I have to make schedule for my entertainment and doing other things..then I would be enjoying this purest holiday better…

N yeah this holiday, there have been so many invitations for potlucks and parties and all other means of people getting together, mostly done by my dearest classmates..i really had my good times and impressively I also master cooking some stuff..for the past three days I’ve been making popia for like 30-60 in a day to bring to my friends’ potluck and party..i told Mak and she said “apsal tak bukak bisnes catering je..dapat duit lebih sket..” hehe good idea but I’ll have to reconsider it for that I bring the popiah to my friends as my gift to them..huh talking bout money, I remember that I still haven’t done making my budget for my tour to paris-amsterdam-brussels..i actually short of money for this tour but as all tickets and accommodations are already booked so I can’t back down now..i called the reception in clonkeagh mosque asking if they have any work for me to do on daily basis, but it turned out that they have nil..anyone who’s reading this..any job for me to do???I ought to earn some extra money!!

Last night I finished watching all the appendices that come in 2 cd in the LOTR extended version dvd set..mm yeah it is the first one, the fellowship of the ring..i learned all stuff they did in turning the Tolkien’s book into a movie, how they did the shootings, the make overs, WETA factory (this one impressed me most!it is like the movie, willy wonka and the chocolate factory, like Elijah Wood said), the sound efx, the miniatutes and the big-atures, basically, all things of this movie captured me inside out..damn I am so much absorbed to the movie now..i guess it is the greatest from book-to reality type of movie..i watched Frank Herbert’s Dune and Children of the Dune, but this one straightly goes on top of it..and yes VIGGO MORTENSEN, the lord Aragorn, he captured my heart too..haha..i want the Aragorn-type of man, a loyal partner that sticks to his initial lover eventhough other woman succumbed to his feet..(and also for his other good inner quality too..apsal la dia ni kafir..haha)

Lelaki baik untuk perempuan yang baik..mesti yakin pada janji Allah s.w.t..

I hold that principle in my heart and keep hoping that it will become a reality, Insya-Allah..and I hope to keep watching over myself to be a good person so that I will find one good man for me..janji Allah..mesti yakin!!ecewah tersemangat pulak..back to the LOTR story..huh I remembered that I used to be hating this movie once, when everyone was talking about it when it came out..plain me, I always go for things that people don’t really go crazy for..that is why I insist of not watching this movie until last few months when the dvd came to my house..i guess it was quite a perfect timing when I discover the movie as I’ve got to watch the full LOTR trilogy at once..(the third one came a little bit late as I only got the vcd sent to me when my other friends have watched it more than twice..it was OK..i preferred watching it at home alone in the dark..the feeling’s there..hehe)..n yeah plain me again, if I am into something, I really dig deep..and I am digging deep into the LOTR now..last nite before going to sleep I tried to continue reading my current book (Till We Meet Again by Lesley Pearse, borrowed from Diana) but I couldn’t stop thinking of the Tolkien’s book..so I made a promise to myself that I can only read Tolkien’s book after I finish reading this book..one big matter, I don’t have any money to buy one!again, MONEY IS THE ROOT OF MY EVERY PROBLEM..i have to put that one in the waiting list..it costs like 30euro in Hughes&Hughes Bookstore..i want it badly…(*_*)

And last nite also, I went to sleep with this weird dream, my old friend came to my house to meet me (the funny thing is dia datang kat rumah lama kat terengganu dulu..weird, everytime I dream of home, it is this home that appear, my house in Dungun, Terengganu where I grew up and spent my childhood times, I only moved to KL when I finished primary school..maybe I miss those sweet childhood memories that they appear in my dreams..hehe)..dia datang, how I missed that face..maybe I missed the Aragorn-type of perfection..maybe I missed my perfect dream person that happened to be imperfect to me now..funny how people evolved thru times..

I have a list of greater responsibilities that I have to handle, n why does my mind still mingles on this one small unimportant matter..good Lord give me strength to move on..